Im so sorry for your loss Trav. Sending hugs and strength as you navigate this grief sober. Keep checking in for support and accountability. Part of flexing our sober muscles is navigating complex emotions sober…easier said than done but it is possible and lots of people here have navigated it.
Hugs
Thank you @Mno ill be alright bro I just got to feel this out.
@cjp thank you. Ill be ok, been here before.
I vent, I feel. Navigating the next few days will be tough but ill be ok. I want to stay sober and not go down either path but I need to feel them to put them to rest.
While we used together, he was always proud of me when I did a sober stint. When I was clean he only ever drank in front of me. Never used, never put in my face.
Its late 1am in fact. I need sleep. Tomorrow is another day to wake up to.
Appreciate you both for taking time and replying.
Hey Trav, I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope you got some sleep last night despite everything and today is a better day. Stay strong through this. Try to remember that alcohol and using won’t make the situation any better or easier. Sending hugs to you during this difficult time.
Cancer does fucking suck.
Sorry for your loss, dude. Cancer sucks ass.
@RR160416 while today’s going to be difficult im going to hit the gym this morning. Indeed found sleep it was restful enough. Thank you.
@RaggedTrouseredPhil thank you brother!
Fuck cancer. Sending good, sober vibes your way! 
Up the wahs. Hope you’re going good bro
Massive 2 days in welly, being a tourist
Im good brother up the wahs!
The game at the new stadium looked epic
Man I wanna wait for some hype to die down then try and catch one. It looks awesome.
Glad your doing good Travis! 
Thank you brother 
been a long 2 days at the airport with hours to wait still but safer here than anywhere else
I was lucky enough to visit New Zealand back in 2011. Beautiful country and Wellington is a lovely city. I hope you had a good time!