I went to a meeting today and stayed quiet… i loved the meeting at my treatment center, there was a moment of silence where people could take the time to see if and what they want to say. This group is just go go go. So anyways… just driving in town is triggering me… i went grocery shopping and seen someone that i relapsed with , which gave me a trigger. I cant talk about it with my SO because he doesn’t understand and is soooo upset with me for relapsing. How our relationship is right now is another trigger because its so damaged from it, i havent been told “love you” in over a month or so, doesnt call me babe… we still sleep in the same bed but theres no affection between us whatsoever.
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Welcome to the group if that meeting doesn’t feel great to you then perhaps try others in your area and connect with people there so you have people in your life that you can share your feelings in times like these, it will help 
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Welcome. I just wanted to share some thoughts on your relationship. I am six months sober and trying to rebuild a very very (did I say very?) damaged relationship with spouse. I understand that no communication either affectionate or anything at all. Hubby works out of town and sometimes I get a text per day and sometimes not. Personally see huge improvements since sober but I feel I have such a long rocky journey ahead. Right now I think the extra struggle will be worth it. I pray a lot and continue to do the right thing. Good Luck!
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Welcome to the community 
Yes I’ve been to rehab a few times and the main thing to realize is that you are in a safe bubble and when it’s over you are tossed back in the real world. You brain and body is still healing so the initial days are rough. I wouldn’t make any drastic move for 60 days but yea, you may need to change some people places and things
I have made the step to leave the relationship today. It isnt healthy for my kids to see the disrespect and the unhealthy side of my relationship. I have no income and no where to go so i am at a shelter with my kids. It is very hard to come back after the damage thats been done. There was no infidelity but trust was broken
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@SamG0505 - I am so sorry you and your kids find yourself unhoused but I am glad for you that you did what you knew in your heart was right. We are here to support you, don’t hesitate to ask for help!
I am sorry you are going through this. May you find comfort and peace!