I’ve just returned from having to go out in the community. It feels like there’s always a challenge for me to deal with mostly with people between each other about some type of harm being plotted against. It causes a lot of hurt and anger when I hear these things because I think i.m a pretty chill guy however what I’m starting to realize is maybe im a pretty good guy when I’m sober but my maybe not so much when I’m in my disease and I will admit I’ve made many big mistakes while in high and I think maybe I justified those behaviors too by blaming others. There no excuse for some of the things yelling screaming going off like a bad man or threatening people isn’t okay even and I’m guilty of doing that in my own home alone still not okay because my neighbors have to hear it. I realize I. Just writing this that when Im in active addiction I’m not who I think I am but what im remembering is the person I am sober I’m greatful for being sober today and being the person I want to be instead possibly being a monster who is getting high I think I need to reflect more and need to be honest about who I really am when I use drugs
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Well said, friend! I know when I finally had insight into my disease, and what I was like when doing it was when I wanted to start living life differently. Rehab started me off right, AA carried me through with plan.
Today is a damn good day to be sober is all I know.
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Yeah being drunk or high typically doesn’t bring out the best in people…At least in sobriety you will not act like that or deal with the consequences of such behavior.
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Someone on here said that drugs (including alcohol, I don’t differ between legal and illegal) turns nice people into assholes. I can relate to that. It’s true.
Stay sober and be the person you want to be.
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