Ugh made it 9 days before I drank a 750 ml bottle of Jameson by myself.
I wonder if you could rewind it, how much lived up to your expectation.
I suppose the purchase, drive home, bottle opening, pouring (optional mixer), and first drink must have had an enormous amount of guilty pleasure, fun, Fun, FUN!! attached to it.
The first, then the second drink, the booze hitting the sweet spot must have been happiness and relief combined?
It’s the rest of it that sucks for me.
The relentless, machine-like draining of the bottle trying to find what you had in the first 10 minutes, stumbling around, guilt, fuck it, brown out, hours later, toilet, horrible taste, guilt, can’t sleep, did I ring, text, email, social media anyone, Agh!, can’t switch brain off, more guilt, sleep, wake, Agh!
Ther’s half a bottle sitting in the kitchen (very unwanted Xmas present).
I’ll keep thinking of part 2 rather than part 1!
Good luck with the reset.
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I’m sorry, you must be feeling awful today 
dust off and keep trying! I go back and forth about paying as much attention to my sober counter because sometimes it almost makes it more tempting to drink. I hope you aren’t sick today and come back fighting!
Um yes @Charlesfreck you just explained it perfectly. I’m bookmarking that to read when I have the urge. 9 days is awesome! Next time you feel like drinking come on here and vent or call a friend. It’s not worth it.
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Im back hear again bcuz i drink a pint of Jameson every day. It would be so nice not to say those words. That feeling of guilt when an entire staff at the packie knows what you want without asking. Good luck to you as I start another day 1 too.
- Mike from Lowell, MA
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Hey Mike, I was exactly where you are, just a different spirit. Can’t even give you any helpful advice really, I packed in because I had an unnerving feeling I was going to kill myself if I didn’t stop. All I though was get through one week. The Dt’s kept me busy for 48 hours and the next 5 days seemed to last 5 months.
Don’t even know what keeps me going, but I’m heading towards 60 days and I’m strong enough now not to go back.
Just try to get that first 7 days Mike, it’s shit, but it’s a shit load easier after that. Good luck!
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Thanks for that. 4 days was my longest streak in 10 years and a week would be magic. I will keep coming back for the encouragement to stop spending so much money to die faster. Lifes too short already.
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This forum’s a real help - lots of good people. And we’re all in the same boat. Keep coming back, and try to make that week!
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