Im doing a little better.
Im taking it step by step, starting with talking about it with my support system. My fiance has been really awesome with it all. My mom has been supportive. Ive only reached out to two of my friends but they’ve both been really great. But its hard because none of them have really been through it, except my best friend. And i feel very cautious about talking with her about it as its very private and sensitive for her and i dont want to cause pain for her just because I’m struggling.
I will say “the feeling” as ive been calling it has gotten much more prominent since I started opening up about it. And i feel really alone. I’m really worried about my mental health right now. Ive been kind of depressed since last week. Not eating, not sleeping well but am constsntly tired, sick to my stomach, cant keep focused for shit. Its also starting to effect my confidence. I’ve regressed a little bit into feeling like I need approval from others and have been very self concious. Ive also noticed that ive been covering up a lot more. Sweaters and jeans even though its still 90 everyday here. Just feeling a little lost.
(Referring to my most recent post)
