Iām not gonna lie this life of normality is kind of getting to me.I do my best to count my blessings.Not my problems but when all I do is work even on my days off /b4 after work, it gets a little boring.I want to smoke a bowl , i want to get a nice clean pipe and a 8ball, and pretty new pink bic, and blow, i love being able to say i been clean for almost 3 yrs , stopped on my own cold turkey, But i also love smoking and keeping busy cleaning cooking , working , working out , mastering being a mom , , these days its just a routine , with no out let , no me time , being a meth smoker for 22 yrs smoking dope was some me time that benefitted me with the energy i now lack , especially with age , man why must disappointing every one around me with relapsing matter so much to me , i hate how much i care and how selfless i am , i want to be selfish a little , why worry about killing my self with drugs when our food is just as bad and even walking in the dollar store and buying something causes cancer and reproductive issues , im so over it
Ive been battling alcohol weed and ciggs 532days no alcohol 40no weed 172no nicotine
I dabbled in others but never got addicted thank god. Alcohol and pot were my choice drugs.
I notice venting helps me in the midst of a craving
Maybe reach out and do things while staying sober. Have funnnnnnnn while staying sober
Hit up a coffee shop
Try something new
Even make a new friend
Or keep your regular routines and stay in the moment. I learned that responsibilities are boring but necessary
For sure thank you 4 taking the time to kick me that advice i appreciate u more than u know
No doubt venting is a key
Do you go aa or na meeting? Online na or aa meetings ?
No all i have is this app
Ive learned the relaps starts be4 even picking up drugs and alcohol
Deffinetly maybe use your coping skills to bring you back down to earth
Drugs and alcohol are VERY BAD
The app is awesome. a lot of people just use the app
How long have you been sober?
I g2 get going
Read and post as much as you can. Learn learn learn. Search topics for questions using the magnifying glass.
Your new to the app so you wont be able to post as much as others for like 1 or 2 days
Take care friend
I understand. Itās a grey, āblahā feeling. It feels like an endless march some days.
In addiction I totally turned my whole concept of enjoyment inside out. I enjoyed this poisonous fake thing. Compared to that, real life seems like boring gray.
Obviously I canāt go back to my addiction. I need to learn to enjoy things. I am looking at taking ballroom dancing lessons. It sounds like fun!
I am still working my way through this. I donāt have any magic answer. But I think thatās partly the point. There is no magic answer. Itās about diving into the new thing - for me, dancing; for you, _____? - and seeing how it feels.
One thing I know for sure is that in my addiction I totally turned my concept of fun inside out. I have work to do, to learn what is fun for me, for the real me.
I get it girlā¦ im coming to 3 years clean and sober in Feb 2025 and does life sometimes feel mundane and boring and routine? Sure it does. I was known as a child of chaos in the problem bcuz my life was so chaotic. Coming into recovery and getting rid of the people, places, and things that caused alot of chaos, i found myself almost feeling uncomfortable being at peace. It was unusal territory to not have chaos all around me. I used to have strong urges to use when things got boring or when i was feeling overwhelmed and needing me time. So, I HAD to find time for me in other healthier ways. Exercise is my me time now. Self care is my me time and i make sure to schedule a little time every night for me. Are u able to schedule time for u for a hobby or self care? I know its hard being a mom and having soo many other duties to tend to. My son keeps me busy until bed lol Honestly tho, i am sure u have some very good reasons for why u quit using and drinking 3 years ago. What were they? Maybe reminding urself of what those reasons are, will help. Sobriety may be boring at times and very routine but its sooo much better than the problems i used to have when using and drinking.
Thank u my friend i will keep ur advice at heart , i will def work on my self care , and remember my reasons 4 this mission of sobriety , 