Ahh lately i have been feeling really frustrated with work and school. Although the best accomplishments lately i got was being approved for a level 1 fingerprint clearance card. The work had to do to get that wasnt easy, with my felony background. But im happy i got it. But past few days i feel alone. I feel i have no one to talk to. I have a boyfriend but sometime i feel hes tired of hearing me out. I dont have any friends. People i knew are from my past addiction i dont speak to them anymore. I guess i feel like i need excitement in my life, more happiness and fun. Other then work and school. Although my school is important and a priority for me. All my boyfriend does is work and sleep. In that im grateful he provides and takes care of me in a caring way he doesnt want me being homeless like i use to be. Sometimes i think thats all hes with me for. On the other end im like what about me? The person i am, i have million questions to ask him but it always ends in a big argument. I guess im saying what about the romantic loving attraction is what i need… it makes me cry sometimes that i think he doesnt see me that way… i dont know what to do…
Oh that is tough, I feel for you. My husband and I had a massive turning point a few years ago when I snapped as felt he didn’t really see me. It turns out he did but just wasn’t great at communicating. It felt like I hadn’t had a compliment since 2004! And after 2 babies and that many passing years I was not the woman he married and needed to be reassured that I was appreciated.
How long have you been together? It sounds like he works hard for you, maybe that is his way of caring?
I think with my consumption and PTSD I derailed the whole being attractive thing many years ago.
I try to see intimacy and love in things that aren’t so exciting. So I’m managing the passion decline in my head.
Anyway, I risk making this post about me.
If you want more you’re going to have to find a way to communicate that. Maybe get counselling if that doesn’t help and you’re worried.
Or, like me, find a way to reevaluate what makes you happy. It’s not always easy.
Yeah we’ve been together 3 years. He does work hard. I mean he does tell me hes sorry he doesnt know how to be intimate romantic wise. But i dont understand why he holds off so long then i start to worry and think otherwise. But he communicates with me. Or maybe its just me being insecure.
I don’t think it is you being insecure as he clearly isn’t giving you what you need. It is a hard one as I know exactly what you mean, although I am now happy with my husband (that has had to come from a place of acceptance). I do sometimes wish for the romance though.
Your right, i do love and care for him very much something ive never felt for anyone before. From having to come from my past how i was. Not caring about anything or anyone. Now i know what it feels to love. I guess maybe giving it time… 
I don’t know all the makings of your relationship and how well you know each other, so please take this with a grain of salt 
If he is not very skilled in the romantic department, then maybe you need to show him example? Tell him what and how often. Learning new things takes repetition. Could you ask him to prioritise those romantic moments over his work sometimes? Ask him what his work means to him. Do the 5 love languages test together, e.g. It’s great that he communicates, that’s a way to move forward.