well today was good and today was bad …today was good because I didn’t drink but bad because I knew I was going to put myself in a place I was going to have a trigger.
I went out to go hang with a friend and I get to the mall he walked across the parking lot and was smashed drunk. I had to hold on his arm so he could go grocery shopping.
it was really ugly because it showed me who I am when I’m that drunk but it made me incredibly sad because I was looking forward to mine and his visit and now it was ruined.