Why do I do this to myself? I know I shouldn’t drink! But sitting on my own watching tv and getting pished for some bizarre reason is my favourite pass time.
But it’s not. I’m wasting my life in a stupor most evenings and end up ranting a lot of nonsense to some poor person on my phone. Then I wake and feel shame. Why would you then drink again?
Wow. I’ve been telling myself to stop for years. But I keep bullshiting myself that I’m fine.
I’m not fine. I’m a drunken bum.
Well. Now I’ve shared my shame with you all. I can say. We go again.
Give me the strength to do it this time.
I want to be free of this curse once and for all.