Been sober for 7 days now of alcohol and Cocaine. It has been surprisingly easy to refrain from both with willpower, but yesterday my girlfriend and I broke up after 4 years. I thought I was going to marry this woman. Now I’m left with nobody to come home to. And it couldn’t have happened St a worse time. I can stop thinking, who cares? Drink now. There’s nobody that you can hurt but yourself! And right now I really don’t care how much pain I inflict on myself because of this breakup. Idk how I’m gonna take this next step. I’ve never been alone, and it scares me. It scares me because I know what kind of monster lives inside of me, and when I’m left to my own thought, it’s always destructive.
If you are destructive when alone with your own thoughts, perhaps being around friends and family that love you unconditionally can keep your thoughts positive and your body clear from those harmful chemicals.
Stay strong!