I was afraid i was gonna do it and it happened. I drank last night. Im very disappointed in myself but all i can do is start over right?..
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Yep, or go back to the wheel of insanity again. Donāt be too hard to you. None of us are perfect. Hugs to ya on this fresh 24 hrs.
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All you can do now is start over Brittni. And hopefully learn from this episode. Maybe next time when youāre afraid youāre going to drink, before drinking, think of ways to counter the urge to do so? Like have a plan in place. Do other things to do beside drinking. Come here and talk about it. Talk to others you trust. Maybe try a meeting. Find distractions. Like I said, think about a plan, make one, donāt be unprepared.
And one thing, said with love: the way you write it down makes it sound like what happened lies at least partly outside of you. And I know thatās a thing us addicted folks think when weāre in active addiction. āIt happenedā. But honestly, it didnāt just happen. You did it. Youāre at the wheel. Addiction wants us to believe weāre powerless but weāre not. We have the power to say no. But we have to work it. And we have to do it together. Canāt do it alone. Thatās why I am here. Iām glad you are here too. Letās do this. Together.
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It seems like you are questioning a reset - do you want to be sober? At this junction starting over at day 1 is the only course in sobriety.
I would say YES - restart and do know that you can always check in on the check in thread with the word āhelpā if you find yourself craving hard. We are all here for you and understand the struggle.
Glad to see you back on the track Brittni - donāt beat yourself up over it and figure out how to cope in a healthy way when the urges hit.
We canāt do this alone. Find ways to gain support and re-train that mind.
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Thank you for your support 
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Youre absolutely right i did make the decision and i am in control. Just gotta keep my mind on what i really want and need thank youā¤ļø
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Its hard for me not to beat myself up but im doing my damnedest not to. Yes im mad at myself for doing it but i cant let it keep me down
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Thatās right, tomorrow is another day, today is all you have. Thanks for the honesty
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Fear means some sort of action necessary (typically). Recognize those signposts. AND keep being honest like that!! Well done.
Iām just coming back after years of ācontrolledā (what a joke) drinking. Day 6 almost in the books.
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Itās not how many times you fall, but how u get back up
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day one here too! my son is learning to walk and heās falling all the time. he just gets right back up! let us be inspired by the children. just like them, we are also learning - how to be ourselves, how to be sober. itās natural to fall sometimes and we just get right back up, and recognize that our muscle for this is developing. no need to feel ashamed. letās have compassion for ourselves. we are learning something difficult
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Thats a good thing to keep in mind just like my son has to learn so do i. Thank you for that
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Try a meeting might help wish you well
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