Well my life just fell apart

I have been smoking weed and vapes since I was 13. It’s kinda sad, I know but I felt like my feelings were too much back then so I used those things as a cushion almost everyday to survive. A doctor that tried to make me give my life to Christ betrayed me yesterday, for he knew that it was a secret from my parents and that I had a plan to quit on the 25th of June. My mom asked for the analysis of the physical printed because I have been dealing with a lot of health issues lately. I know I was gonna quit anyway but it makes me really angry and sad that it happened the way it did, I was trying to shield my mom from the disappointment and now she’s not even talking to me. She’s saying they’re gonna drug test me every two weeks, that kinda sucks I feel like I’m in Euphoria. I turned 18 in December and it took me a while to gain the autonomy I deserved in my house, and now it feels like they’re going to discard every progress I’ve ever made in my entire life because of my addiction. Even though I was growing in silence fixing myself from inside out they won’t recognize that, and it makes me angry and sad. There’s nothing more I want right now than a cart or a vape. But it’s been 5 years, that’s a long time and I know it’s time to stop if I don’t want this to become a real issue in my life. I’m not really sure what to do now, I feel like I’m in a limbo.

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I vaped, smoked and smoked weed for 20 years. You can quit.

If you quit you can take drug test after test and you’ll be fine

Sober is better and stronger annnnnnnnd healthier

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Maybe a bit of side-tracking, but -

  1. No doctor or medical professional should be promoting or pushing their patients towards any religion.
  2. As a legal adult, your parents have no right to your medical information and unless you signed a waiver/ROI granting your Mom access to that information, they should not have provided the details of your physical to her. If you didn’t sign something doing that, it’s a big no-no (HIPAA violation) and the doctor could get in deep shit for it.

First and foremost, I’d be getting a new doctor mostly due to item #1 above, and reinforced by item #2.

Good luck to you.

Edit to add: the above applies to people in the US, at least. This could be different if you are elsewhere.

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Absolutely agree your doctor was entirely unprofessional, and should no longer be a part of your medical care.
Your parents are not reacting as one might hope. But, to give them grace, perhaps they are worried, confused, etc, addiction is pretty misunderstood by those who haven’t been through it. But there reaction is about them, not you. Try to set boundaries as well as you can (I guess you live together).
Focus on yourself. If you want to quit, then quit. There is plenty of info on here
What’s YOUR plan?
I understand the rage that comes with being doubted and treated like a child. But lashing out, using “at” people, will only hurt you the most. Changed behaviour is the only way to rebuild trust. And changed behaviour also gives you your self esteem back.
Just keep working on yourself, for you. :purple_heart:

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