Well I had court yesterday for my DUI. I actually only got two years probation and no jail time so I sighed a huge sigh of relief. Then he sentenced me for my insurance lapsing (which lapsed only 3 weeks prior to my accident). He gave me 30 days in jail starting January 1st. I’m in shock and disbelief that my sentence was worse for no insurance than being drunk behind the wheel!!! And what made it so much worse was that all the cops who were at the scene of the accident were there sitting in the courtroom! Except the deputy who I collided with was standing. Standing right behind me to try to intimidate me and be seen by the judge. The same one who wrote a victim letter to the judge saying that he still suffers from anxiety when driving at night. Really??? I’m sorry but if that’s the case he should work during the day and go to counseling… which he has done neither, but he wants me to pay for his medical bills…he was checked out at the hospital per state policy that night in the emergency room but he was discharged with no injuries. But he is claiming that he has lasting effects from it. Again if that was true he should be in counseling. He acts like I shot him! He was there because of anger and jealousy…period!! All the other cops were sitting behind the country attorney except one. The one who stayed with me until the ambulance came was sitting behind me. And he was in street clothes, so he came on his day off. It was as if he was supporting me. The wuss of a cop, the one I collided with was in his full uniform even though his shift didn’t start for 10 more hours! My attorney said that he was mad because I wrote a letter of comidation to the deputy who stayed with me and not him. He failed to ask if I wrote an apology letter to him which I did! A 3 page one! So obviously he wasn’t interested in my amends to him, he just wanted to be a duchebag. Guys I can’t do it…I’ve never been in trouble with the law, NEVER! and this is what I get???. When the judge said 30 days I actually fainted. The judge ordered a short recess & after I came to I told the judge I was fine to continue (because I didn’t want a continuance) After he finished I fainted again when I was walking out of the courtroom hitting my head on one of the benches & had to be taken to the hospital by ambulance. I can’t do this, I can’t go to jail…I just can’t. I’ve been doing everything right since that night. I go to counseling for my PTSD every Monday, I see a drug and alcohol counselor every other week, I go to 3-6 AA meetings a week, I have a sponsor, I have remained sober since that night, I’ve been volunteering, and I have a full time job. I don’t know what more I could be doing to prove to them that I’m improving my my life and am extremely remorseful for my actions. Apparently they think jail time is more important than all I’ve done. How will I go 30 days without my PTSD counseling, my drug and alcohol counselor, my AA family, my psychiatrist for my medicine, and my sweet baby dogs two of which are my service dogs for my PTSD! I can’t do this…I just can’t! After all the shit I’ve gone through this year & this happens I just can’t do it anymore. Getting sentenced yesterday wasn’t the only thing that happened. My nursing license got suspended because ofy DUI as well. I can’t even be a nurse anymore. That’s all I’ve ever wanted to be. I have lost all my faith in God as well. I can’t do it. I have no family left including my daughter, I was sexually assaulted, I can’t be a nurse anymore for who knows how lone maybe never, and now a jail sentence in January. I have nothing left. I’m done, just done. I don’t want to drink but I do want to die. More than likely I will be dead by January…
I’m sorry you’re going through all of this.
You and maybe many others won’t like what I say now.
You made a mistake, and things like this happen when we make such a mistake.
I don’t want to start a fight with you, or anyone.
But sometimes we only learn it the hard way.
Be strong and stop talking about that you’ll be dead by January, because that won’t be the case.
Okay? Be strong.
I’ve seen most of your posts and you’ve been through hell and back this year. But you’re still standing and worked really hard to not fall down again. There’s nothing I can say that will make you feel any better. But we’re here to listen anytime you need to vent.
And jail time sounds terrifying. But you’ve done so well up until now with everything, you are strong enough to make it in jail for 30 days.
Oh my dear, I hug you, that sounds awful at the moment. 30 days in jail is no big deal, you will survive it if you really have to check in.
It’s ridiculous that an insurance issue is punished with jail but it is like it is. Your lawyer can try to claim suspension for health reasons and go for objection.
Stay on your path, you are doing the right things. The only way to deal with the consequences of our addictions is through, no bypass, no cheating.
I know you feel anxious and horribly frightened right now. That too shall pass, focus on the things you CAN do NOW, no future tripping. Sending you strength and hugs 
And keep us posted here
Idk man. It sucks you have to go to jail as a consequence of that night but the victim blaming does not sit right w me and doesn’t go together w sincerely being sorry for me either…
I wish you all the best on your way. I hope you can come out a better, stronger more self loving and considerate person. Seems like you’re mostly on your way to that w all that you’re doing, apart from what this post reflects.
You’re not going to be dead by January and Jail is not going to kill you.
I never spent any time in the slammer but I spent many many nights and days in police cells when I was younger. One time I was held without food, water or even any contact with the officers for about 20 hours.
Everytime I got arrested, I would lay down on the pitiful excuse of a mat as a bed and it was the most peaceful time of my life - The reason being is because it literally could not get any worse. The worst had happened in my mind. It was a good time to try and find some clarity.
Jail sucks, obviously. I don’t blame you for being royally fucked off about the sentencing. It’s a bizarre way to look at it but a lot of people come out of jail much more able to face the world better than they were beforehand. Do you think you can be one of those people?
Is it there a chance to get your nursing license back down the line after the suspension ends?
I am very sorry you are unhappy with the consequences you received. 2 years probation and 30 days in jail is really not that bad when you could have killed someone and be facing a lot longer jail time. I know it must be a terrible shock and I can’t imagine how you are feeling. I do know it isn’t worth ending your life over.
Jails have pharmacies so you will be able to get your medicine. Maybe your therapist can provide you with phone calls instead of physical meetings. I believe jails also have AA meetings along with other programs. I’m not sure about the doggos but hopefully something can be worked out for them to stay with a relative while you do your 30 days.
I do wonder if you would be speaking so badly of the victim if he was a civilian. I was in a bad wreck about 7 years ago. My truck was completely totaled and I almost had the engine in my lap. I had nightmares for weeks after. I woke up to the crushing sounds of metal and it was terrible. It took me 3-4 weeks before I could even get behind the wheel again. I still have panic attack in high traffic areas, at stop lights that are similar to the one I was hit at and hardly ever drive at night. My husband drives 95% of the time now. If the gentleman says he has trauma related to the crash who are you to say he doesn’t.
Again, I am very sorry that you received jail time but remember every experience can make us stronger if we let it.
I can only talk about my own experience. Jail for me was not as terrible as I thought it was going to be. I did short bids, from one day to weekends to 10 days followed by the rest of my sentence (3 years) on house arrest and parole. There was a guy with lots more experience in jail than I who did caution anyone who would listen that “Jail is overrated”.
Make sure your lawyer gets any time you were held in jail counted toward time served. In some places, if you were held overnight, that counts as at least one and maybe two days and will reduce your stay in the county jug.
I was held in booking for a day, then in “administrative segregation” (aka “the hole”) for a day or two - it’s not like movie depictions of empty cells with no lights - it’s tiny but comfortable enough, I was able to read and work puzzles to pass the time. My time in general population was limited and not all that bad.
Be prepared, though, for a couple of things. Strip searches can be humiliating. Shakedowns (cell searches for contraband) can upset your environment for a short time. I would think you would be housed in a unit for short-timers which should make things easier. Many facilities have in person AA meetings, and at least around here, inmates have use of iPads for specific purposes, and reading AA literature, possibly attending a virtual meeting might be in the cards. Your best approach would be to not complain and follow instructions from the corrections officers carefully and quickly.
Whether you do or not, I have faith that you will be given the strength you need to survive and even thrive on this circumstance. There are beautiful people all around us, and all people are capable of beauty on some level and at some times.
Blessings 
on you and your house as you prepare for this time apart.
Well others can’t understand our alcoholic/addict behavior and I don’t think we can fault them for that.
Im sure it feels like it was some one else that night and therefore hard to accept full accountability for what happened. This type of stuff is the reality of what happens when we decide to drink.
Odd as it may seem how youre feeling is completely normal. Jail time and major legal issues arent designed to be accompanied by warm and fuzzy feelings. Which includes all the inconveniences to your perceived life.
I believe in you. Like others have said there are usually meetings in jails and I think if you make sobriety your number 1 (and 2 and 3 and 4 and 5 and 6) priority you can come out of this better than ever.
I hope you will read the comments above with open mind and heart 
Because if you do you will see the light trough the mist as well.
You are here for a long time and maybe you need this to turn your life around: your rock bottom.
Fight lady, fight your ass out. Not against the judge, police ore jail. But use your energy to fight the addiction in YOU.
You are your problem and your solution as well
Don’t let your addiction win, get all the help you can get. AA in jail is a good start! 
He was found to have NO injuries. I barely clipped his front fender. His airbag didn’t even deploy. If he was so traumatized he should be in counseling but he isn’t, he admitted it to the court in my PSI. Thanks for making me feel worse. I more than likely won’t return to this forum for a long while. I thought I was in a safe place to voice my sadness and anxiety, I was wrong. 
No where in my post did I blame him. I KNOW that it was my fault and I wrote him a 3 page letter stating my extreme remorse. He was found to have NO injuries. I barely clipped his front fender. His airbag didn’t even deploy. If he was so traumatized he should be in counseling but he isn’t, he admitted it to the court in my PSI. Thanks for making me feel worse. I more than likely won’t return to this forum for a long while. I thought I was in a safe place to voice my sadness and anxiety, I was wrong.
Not everything is an attack on you. The cop, like all people, is allowed to feel any way he wants to feel and take action as he sees fit. @Faugxh pointed out that you have responsibility for your actions - and that goes beyond an amends, you are still responsible.
It’ll go easier for you if you can leave that place of trying to change other people’s behavior and feelings. I tried that for years, I still try it time to time, and apart from small children, I find it does not work.
This is a safe place, including a place to listen to others’ responses to your posts.
I am taking responsibility for my actions. I’m just scared cuz I’ve never been in trouble with the law before. Im still in shock and am so numb. My post was more of a tearful rant than anything else. Sorry if I made everyone mad about it.
You are very much allowed to be angry by the situation. I’m sure you’re very scared and that is 100% normal and okay.
I think accepting the situation, and controlling what you can control will make it easiest to navigate. Try and find the silver lining. You will get through this, you’re strong.
I’m sorry that you feel attacked, I don’t believe anyone is intentionally attacking you. If you would like us to close this thread for now we can do so, message us @moderators if we can assist you.
Being scared is being human, and it’s rational to be scared in your circumstance. But I know that every little thing is gonna be alright.
Its gonna be ok, you can and will get through this, sending big love and hugs to you, you can do this
You didn’t make me mad. The post does read like a rant. And by definition, rants aren’t the most rational or thought out things. You’re angry, scared and upset because you’re in a really bad situation. I could have written or thought out the same thing, or even worse in your situation.
Everyone here means well, and maybe you’ll be able to look at the replies with a cooler head once all this is over.
Don’t let this ruin all the progress you’ve made with your sobriety. It will be ok, you’ve come so far this year, you really have.
Thank you so much for your kindness! I appreciate you and I needed to hear this SO bad right now!!!