For the past 10 years i’ve been getting myself into situations and negative experiences because of drugs and have been fighting anxiety and depression because of that. I’ve spent countless weekends where I’ve been non stop partying surrounded by people who weren’t even my friends. I would then spend days in bed and feel like shit for a week after…. only to start the cycle all over again.
I never thought i had a problem until this week. I went to my very first meeting today even though it scared the crap out of me to go. Going through those doors was probably the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do. I’m so scared of a life without alcohol and drugs.
I’m so thankful I did now and even signed up for service. I want a better life for myself and today is day 1.