Need help to settle a racing mind. My girlfriend and I are splitting up, the alcohol abuse got to much for her and she asked me to leave. I am devastated and heartbroken but I understand why and told her so, this was my rock bottom because I love her that much, I’m destroyed having to leave. She said she needs a break. I signed a year lease yestrdy and have to leave our house we got together. She said I can visit, text, call and hangout sometimes. I have asked her if I stay sober and take care of myself can we get back together? She said I don’t know, which is understandable because of all the other drunken let downs I’ve created. I’m going to stay sober for me 1st then her, my question is…is this relationship over or is there a chance to renew our love?
Don’t even think about that now. Look after number one for a while. If you’re meant to drift back together, you will in time. If not, you’ll be healthy and happy and ready to move on.
Focus your energy on yourself for a while.
I’m sure she will at least appreciate the effort you are making in getting sober but as you rightly say do this for yourself first and foremost. If she truly loves you and is meant to be it’ll work out if not you’re better off finding someone who stands by you even though the toughest times and helps you. Stay strong and positive!
Sorry to hear. Been there done that. Unless I’m missing something or misread… But you said you signed a lease yesterday. If it’s just you that signed it then why are you leaving? I say this to you as someone who went through a divorce and lost the house. It just seems very coincidental that you sign a paper then are told to leave.
If she didn’t throw you out and say she never wants to see you again… I believe there’s a chance. You’ve got this!
Hey, this is off the topic of alcohol and relationships, but is there a legal time-frame when you can back out of a lease agreement? You need to call your landlord or do an online search about lease agreements in your state. That is a HUGE financial obligation that you are bound to otherwise. You need to protect yourself. You don’t need another worry right now. Stay strong! And good luck!
Another thought: can you talk to your girlfriend and agree that you should BOTH back out of this rental agreement until things are clearer between the two of you? Put a stop payment on that deposit check through your bank - tell your girlfriend that’s what you are going to do. I’m not an attorney (just an engineer) but I’ve been around the block a few times with rentals and even owned a house once… Stay strong, and stay sober, friend! You’ve got this. And I am SO sorry about your heartbreak. 
@Crixus320 I would say do exactly what @Kareness is suggesting. You’re already taking an emotional hit. You DO NOT need a financial hit as well. There may be more to the story than what you posted originally. Regardless of that, something doesn’t seem right / sit well with how you JUST signed papers and are NOW being asked to leave. As Bono once said “Love is blindness”.
The house is in her name, I signed a lease for an apartment, she asked me to leave, I had no chouce
Sorry for the confusion, she asked me to leave her house and I had to get an apartment with a one year lease, so I have a year to straighten up in my own apartment an hopefully she will see what I’ve done and can move back home, thanx for all the support and responses by the way, trying to hang tuff I am
She might and she might not. Stay sober for yourself and be the best man you can be. Show her that you are worthy as a person. When you are ready, court her again. You can do it!
So sorry about your break up, I hope you work things out, I am going through a similar thing with my husband, waiting to see what he decides 
You have to take care of yourself first. Love is love, it will work out if she cares enough about you to see you get through it. Alcoholism isn’t fun to go through by yourself…my biggest comment would be since she says idk to you getting back together, then it appears actions speak louder than words for her. Use it as fuel my friend, show her that you are strong enough to better your life and you never know, there may be someone else along the way that notices/appreciates the action more than she may…with all that said, hoping for the best for you
If you manage to clean up your act and quit drinking you may find that your relationship will not actually improve to any significant extent in the long run. The drinking/relationship problems could be interlinked in ways you did not think of. So first step is to lock the bar fridge door and once sober sit back and reflect, it may not be ALL you
@Crixus320 I tried to find something encouraging and motivational for you this morning with some quotes. I hope you have a better day today!
Ty, very kind of u to take the time and something special, very appreciated