Trying to go easy on myself but I am really really down at the moment. Journaling and listening to recovery podcasts. I feel lost and so ashamed. I told myself today that this is the last time you have to feel this way , I just need to stay strong and put in the work for myself.
Plan - Going to attend a Zoom meeting
Feeling like I need a sponsor. I need to muster the courage to attend an in person meeting.
Sending you COURAGE to attend meeting… I love my in person group…also sending hugs.
Thank you for the courage, I attended my first meeting via zoom. 
That lost and shameful feeling would probably appreciate you getting a sponsor. It is never a bad idea to have someone you can create a bond with and get guidance from. They also know the shoes you’re walking in. Prayers for you
I made appointment for a therapist and looked for an AA meeting to attend, other than that just staying in bed. 
This is one of my favorite threads to visit each morning because it kicks me in the butt, and reminds me not to be complacent.
I’m going to follow your lead and refrain from the energy drinks. 
I’ll spend time organizing my creative space to find inspiration rather than scroll mindlessly on my phone.
Step work (“shocking” 
)I am praying
Prayer
Devotional
Coffee
Workout
Being health conscious
I felt the same way this morning! Glad we were able to recognize that and push through it!
I decided to teach and tudor again this year (8th grade). Although it’s a lot of work it helps me to stay focused. It also helped working on lesson plans over the summer so I’m ahead of the game which will free me up for more 1 on 1 teach time. Early retirement from health care management was nice but way too much time to let my mind wonder.