Boredom
Back when I still had triggers they were basically EVERYTHING I did. I was an all day every day drinker so there was nothing I did without a drink in my hand. Here were some big triggersā¦
Driving
Watching tv
Working
Any form of socializing
Grocery shopping
Having sex
Playing with my kid
Going to the movies
Smoking cigs on my back porch
Walking my dog
We could increase the list at infinitumš
Wow, Iām trying to imagine that,n how challenging it must have been in the beginning, trying to maintain sobriety with triggers literally everywhere. Thank God those days are over!
Thank God indeed. For today at least, they are gone. It was really like they say, I had to rewire my brain and change habits. Driving was a Huge one for me. So I had to always have something in a cup with ice in the cup holder. Same with socializing and smoking cigs on porch. Have a cup in hand at all times.
When i start cooking dinner every nightā¦ it feels like the day is over and is time to relax
My mom.
Itās now weird how I will be pulling up to the house and itās hot AF and have a random thought of shit an ice coldddddd. Then I just laugh. Wtf am I thinking. It was just my life for so long. I was the jackass that hated puking that first drink of the morning up so I would get up and medicate through the night. So Iām with you opening a cabinet door brings back memories lol. Life was a trigger so I just focused on recovery and by the grace of god I didnāt get to many triggers.
Guy at my job sometimes when he lights up his smoke. He smokes my old brand Newport and the smell just brings the taste back of. The hit of speed the swig off my Becks and the long drag. It does bring back that good feeling. Then I Stop! and realize how much hated it and still have some work to do
Especially going out socializing and sexual drive. Iāve become an alcoholic trying to get laid.
Being alone, painful memories, my exā¦
Being alone at home, anxiety, eating dinner. I donāt feel the need to drink during the day as Iām usually disgusted with myself for drinking the night before and so motivated at work. But every single evening the cravings come on so strong
Torch Lighters
Definitely the pressure of college and trying to make it out
For me, today, family could be a trigger but Iām not giving them that pleasure !
I can understand that feeling! in my case playing the newest Fifa version each year
You hit that one right on the targetā¦ Itās getting high was the only fun u know. ā¦
Having company over. It helps me not feel awkward and have fun so I go for it then feel like crap the next day. Also having a tough time at work. Which only makes for a bad next day.
You have the exact same triggers as me word for word!
Nice Weather and no responsiblities. Concerts.
I canāt control the weather, so I just have to be aware on that one.
I just stay busy and avoid concerts (not as bad as I thought, bc Iāve come to not like crowds much these days and sure donāt care for crowds of drunks. How is that for the pinnacle, the zenith, the -now where is my thesaurus- of hypocrisy?)
Best,
Chandler
Life in general. It could be the greatest day ever, or feel like the worst. I want to drink because the sun is out, or drink because the weather is inclement. The grass is green or the grass is gone. I could be the happiest guy on the planet, and I just want to drink myself into oblivion. I could be stressed, or experiencing feelings of mania.There was never any rhyme or reason. I spent most of the time though listening to music or watching movies so it was hard for me to find joy in those past times again getting sober, but I did get there.