Working progress def. nothing overnight. I call it a life long job soo to speak especially for the SICK (ME). I had to humble myself/ surrender and let God…. Recovery is way more than just being sober. Way you carry yourself/ aditude/ gratitude etc. To me if ur cutting corners/lies/miserable your still SICK. Me I’m still taking it one day at a time learning everyday. “Trust God/clean house/help others. GodBless
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My recovery is definately life or death for me im choosing to keep living today. It means everything for me to be honest, open and free rather than trapped, miserable living a lie stuck in my addictions. So greatful i have the chance and to be given another day in sobriety.
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Honest is key for sure… Truth will sent u free. No more trapped in slavery (addiction). Keep inspiring bro. 
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Good to see you here.
keep on that path, one day a time, we just keep moving ahead in life 1step at a time.
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I agree with @SoberGuyUSA completely! I’m only 10 days sober and the emotions I feel on a daily basis now are unreal! All the way down to the dreams I now have while sleeping it’s like my brain is giving me hints on how to heal as a person without alcohol. The emotional part of sobering up is a very humbling experience for sure.
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Work work work and desire everyday as well as your surroundings is big too to stay afloat in sobriety. But as soon as you get complacent poof!
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Very humbling and now just learning to adapt has been kinda difficult for me. The thoughts of guilt and heartache I’ve caused been kicking my ass. I’m learning to face it head on. Comfort is the enemy of growth and it’s getting real uncomfortable here now. You got this keep the work working one day at a time…
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Yes same here. I have many things from the past where I was uncontrollable due to drinking that come to mind but I am working on coping with those and how to “make right” -if possible- those things I did or said to people I love or care about.
It is possible but it does take work, willingness and self reflection.
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Recovery is reconnecting with my true self. The part of me before lifes occurances made me into who I became.
Who am I without all the booze? How did I get so disconnected? How did being drunk and/or high become my normal?
It’s about seeking roots and causes.
Where did my belief structures come from? Do they help me, or hold me back? Are they even true? Do they keep me intoxicated? Are these my beliefs or someone else’s?
It’s about letting go of old ideas that no longer help me and becoming willing to try new ideas that will.
Letting go of false beliefs and seeking new beliefs.
It’s a process. The harder I work on my recovery. The more I recover.
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For me it’s accepting I have a brain disease that never will go away.
Having insight as to how & why I developed it and recognizing/sharing my feelings that would often kick things off into a spiral so I don’t revert.
Lastly, the feeling I have in the healthy things I do now for myself and others who have this disease.
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Recovery is gaining back my freedom, inner peace and self esteem! It’s an ongoing job…
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Great post and comment! I agree. For me recovery is a complete 360 change. Its working on the physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual (most of all… for me anyway). My best thinking got me to this point, and my best thinking won’t get me out. I’m realizing I need that direction and guidance from my HP to show me how to live a diff way of life. And that for me is also being rigorously honest with myself. That honesty, open mindedness, and willingness to do the right thing gets me far when I work it 
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I’m guessing that HP can be secular/religious or anything really that gets you through? I struggle with the religious side quite a lot. I think my HP is nature.
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I saw a post from another on religion that really hit home for me–
Religion is for those trying to keep from going to hell. Having a HP and being spiritual is what those of us do to keep from going back to hell.
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Love that.
My Higher Power has changed many times over the course of my recovery. I will be honest… it is truly one of the biggest aspects of my recovery. My HP has truly done for me when I can’t for myself… without a doubt.
But my HP isn’t just one thing, its a combination of things. So nature (like urself) is one of them, Crystals, Angel Cards, the Aboriginal culture (which is tied very much into nature) and then also God. I used to get hung up on the God word ALOT! Even tho I believe in God, I don’t consider myself religious. I’m definitly spiritual tho:
~ Religion are for those that don’t want to go to hell. Spirituality are for those that have been to hell and don’t want to go back ~
That’s one of my fav sayings. Ultimately ur HP is personal to u. It’s something that u feel connected to, something that helps in ur recovery, that guides you in doing the next right action
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Sounds good. Yeah I felt a bit isolated on some meetings as it was very God centric. I have to unpack the meaning of HP some more I think and see how it can serve me. Since the pandemic I’ve grown so insular that nature isn’t running through me so freely. That’s what needs to change I think. Some immersion.
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Some mtgs do often talk about God. At 1st, I had to sort of mentally switch out the word. So like when I hear God, I’d switch it to HP in my mind so that I wasn’t so turned off by what was being said or read. I used to be soo closed minded to anything spiritual honestly. I remember being told the HOW of the program (this is related to the 12 steo program). Honesty, Open-minded and willingness. All I needed was to just be even alittle bit open minded to the idea of a HP and a willingness to try to seek out something greater than myself. And that’s when things started opening up for me
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I’m still going to try and be in as many meetings as I can from today as my relapse yesterday kicked me in the teeth again. I’m quite resolved today, it feels like I want it more. Recovery to me means rediscovering myself and creating a circle of trust with myself. Building my own personal resolve up.
Lots to think about… I’ll have the time to, lol
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For me, recovery means allowing myself to FEEL things. It means letting all those negative feelings and emotions come to the surface and DEAL with them, rather than stifling them and pushing them down by self medicating.
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