What made me begin this journey NOW?!

Just passed 3 days. Was making a 17-hour drive with family for a ski vacation on Christmas Day and found this app. Thought, why not now? Day 1 would at least be easy! But I find myself looking forward to all the events that make these ski trips “what they’ve been”. Beers on the mountain, wine with/after dinner, New Year’'s gathering with friends. Yikes! These first days haven’t been terrible - no physical symptoms. Just tons of mental gymnastics. I guess that is to be expected. But it sure would have been easier 2 weeks from now! Still, I want this. By the way, my family seems clueless to the extent of my problem. That, or they haven’t known how to confront me. Thanks for all the postings here that I have been learning to navigate.

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I figured there would always be a reason to have a drink…all equally as “good” as any other. So if I wanted to do this I just had to pick NOW. Christmas has been REALLY hard (especially while visiting my ILs) but I’m doing this. You can do it too. The fact that you found this app tells me you are ready to do it NOW.

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Yep. It’s like I was reading my thoughts on here. On one hand I wanted to wait till after the holidays, but on the other hand I figured if I could get through the roughest time of the year, I could get through anything.

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Thanks. Sure helps to share!

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My thoughts too. But geez! So many early tests! Thanks for the response.

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I personally think if you wait for a specific time then you drink more because you are planning on giving it up, the drink then becomes even more precious and then even harder to give up.

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The early tests are going to be some of the hardest ones - if you can get through the next couple of days you’ve made a brilliant start to '17.
We all have!

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I started 1 1/2 days ago. My husband told me he was so tired of all the things I had ruined due to my drinking, that the next thing he would do was take my kids. And that CAN NOT happen.

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Well done Sally1, you’re in good company here :slight_smile: I got to the stage where I thought I might have to do a “Britney Spears” and shave my hair off so my husband couldn’t use it for a battle of custody. Thankfully he is sticking by me but I was definitely treading a fine line of loosing my family.

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Good for you! We are in this together, yes? My boys are older (20/23), so I am at risk only of losing their respect. I keep going back to that. And, future (hopefully) grandchildren. I want to be around to know them and have fun with them.

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I was at my son’s bball practice last night and all the other mom’s were talking about going home and having wine. I just kept reading the forum. It helped💜

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Send u HUGS and love from BERLIN CITY Germany Europe love to read your story .ilkay sobertime 4494 days

Eli u touched my heart with your words send u love from BERLIN CITY Germany Europe