Addiction has always been an endless battle for me, I always thought it would end me and over two years ago I thought there was no option but to give in and give up.
I am now so thankful and blessed that wasn’t my end story after all my life battling one addiction after another. I knew at that rock bottom point I had to change and reset alot of my habits and thoughts.
I can tell you like everyone else I’ve had one hell of a journey and when I actually knew my only hope to stay alive was to get clean this little community got me to rehab, where rehab led to a programme, CBT, DBT, regression therapy which has led me to being sober, alive and thriving x
I’ve not been active for nearly coming a year more so I say on communicating however I have never strayed far and have always been reading posts and the main reason I never stopped is because I know not reminding yourself about being an addict allows the gremlins to try at vain to believe just one more time will not hurt you.
So why the long post and that is because I want to share how recover has given me a life I never ever thought would happen, my family are back in my life I never thought there would be a day I would say those words… I have a relationship where I’m accepted for who I am (LGBT/Neurodiverse)
I have just got a job back in my home town I live a fair bit of distance from my hometown and always feared if I went back round where I grew up, I’d break and be back on drugs and now I’m looking for a place to call home!
My job front is more than I thought I ever would achieve and I’m working on supporting other addicts in a very well known rehab.
I wanted to share the positives because one of my biggest issues was I never could see past the hurt, damage and past history that kept me from recovering, loving myself and enjoying life without the aniexty or the dress.
So if your struggling that’s okay but know that there are brighter days ahead, there will be days that change to weeks that change to months that will end in years of showing you can be clean/sober and find joy in your life.
Believe in yourself, do it for you, acknowledge addiction and accept you can be free.
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uv worked very hard to get where u are!
