When the pink cloud bursts

Good morning :smiling_face: day 35! I read about the pink cloud of euphoria you can get when newly sober and I’ve definitely been floating along in it for the last couple of weeks, however.,…
The last few days I’m down to earth with a bump! Granted, we’ve got a few issues going on with my partners job and our financial situation but nothing that won’t be sorted. I’d normally be stressed to hell about that which I’m not thanks to being sober but I just feel generally blah. I’m not depressed and I definitely don’t want a drink, just wondered if anyone else is feeling like this?

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Just on day 40… am definitely with you here. I’m just feeling a bit lost, like, now what? I’m remaining grateful for how far I’ve come and everything I have, distracting myself, etc.

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Past few days I have been experiencing this blahness as well. I am trying to keep my mind active with new perspectives and mindfulness activities. Also looking to establish a relationship with a higher power.

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That’s pretty normal. Your brain sorted itself to business as usual mode instead of freaking out about no more toxic intake and repairing, so to say. Great job!!! :four_leaf_clover::sunflower:
Maybe you can welcome this new state with something nice & kind, bringing you joy? Some flowers from you to you? A weird little happy dance? Blankie, book & tea? Close your eyes and sniff the weather for 5 minutes?
Have a happy as possible sober brain day :hugs:

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Sorry you’re feeling down - it sucks, I know! - but in my experience feeling blah is a good chance to reach out to experienced folks and learn from them (and then later, you get a chance to pass that on when you become one of the experienced folks). I had a conversation this morning about this with my sponsor actually!

It’s a blah feeling but the point is you are feeling it - not avoiding it - and you are reaching out to learn and gain perspective.

Keep walking forward, keep sharing, keep learning. You will find your stride :innocent:

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Congratulations on day 35!! I have been in blahville for several months…maybe longer, so I understand. It is normal to have ups and downs. (This is me giving a suggestion I don’t take enough for myself)…maybe try to get out in nature for a bit…that always gives me a boost. :people_hugging:

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Pretty normal. But not necessarily nice.

Sorry you feel a bit blah. They say you get your emotions back when you quit drinking. Sadly not all emotions lift you up into the fluffy pink cloud. After numbing all the feelings with alcohol, it takes some adjustment to just feel the feels as they are intended.

It’s great that the good can make you feel euphoric, but the not-so-good can also make you feel downright sh*t.

Be kind to yourself and know that it will get easier to manage emotions over time without numbing them. Great work on your sober time!
:squid:

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I think, blah is way better than being bombed or hungover with lifes shitty parts still right there in our faces.
It’s a damn good day to be sober and you’re doing it alongside all of us! So glad you’re here, Sarah.

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Hang in there,I promise it will get better. Give yourself a little bit of grace. At day 35 you need to remember to take it one day at a time. Focus on today so you do not get overwhelmed. Your body and mind are trying to figure out what is going on. Sobriety is a lot of work and mentally challenging. Sending you postive thoughts.

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Day 43.

Haha, also feeling for the past two weeks a Little Bit „down to Earth“. Im accepting it, since i know it is my Brain readjusting.

It needs time. I say to myself: You cant repair something in 1-2-3 months that has been damaged for YEARS - so im accepting it as a Phase in the process. Helps me to know it is normal. I am happy that it’s that way - that means one step further into my new life.

I try to be compassionate with myself and to hear what I Need. Also to give myself Rest when I need it.

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Thank you so much everyone, it’s nice to know I’m not alone and some really helpful advice thanks :pray: xxx

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Definitely have been riding the pink cloud and can relate to it dwindling a bit.

I’ve noticed sometimes moments in life are blah or not super fun, and I try to remind myself I don’t always have to feel positive or be stimulated. Trying to live in the moment and question the thoughts of why I’m uncomfy with my current state or what is going on. Lots of questions and room for learning about yourself in the blah and boredom times.

Just kinda how my thoughts have been working through my new sobriety.

Congrats on 35 days !! :slight_smile:

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Yes, for sure, early sobriety is hard, but also novel and feels exciting and satisfying. Once it feels more like regular life, then you have to learn to keep staying sober without that obvious excitement and satisfaction. Reminding yourself of how far you have come can help. Like drunk-ass me would have given her right arm for this life, even if sober-ass me is feeling stressed or disillusioned.

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Lots of great answers here :+1:

I definitely feel the blah, but I’m cool with it now. I’ve accepted it as a part of life that comes and goes. I felt that was important for me to do bc I always used those moments as the perfect excuse to drink, to ‘spice things up’ :roll_eyes: I’d say it took me a good 6 months before I really understood what my ‘normal’ state was. I think it takes a while to adjust bc we’re so used to such drastic highs and lows, that equanimity feels foreign to us. But the longer you feel it, the more comfortable it becomes, and it’s not an everyday thing either. So embrace the blah :hugs: You’re sober! :sparkles:

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I vote these two suggestions :wink: nothing is like the feeling of sniffing the weather… hot days ending with the smell rain coming and then when it hits the ground owwww theres nothing quite like the smell of rain hitting hot pavement them smell is pure nostalgic :heart_eyes:

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The blahs only feel blah because as alcoholics we’re used to the five-alarm dumpster fire. I appreciate your point that as we adjust what we initially feel is blah takes on more depth, texture, and color.

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I’m trying to appreciate the “blah” and see it as calm tranquility instead of the drama I’m used to. It’s definitely an improvement, I just need to lean into it and understand my new frame of mind. I’m clean and serene :+1:t2::rofl::heart:

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A clean, serene, sober machine :muscle:

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