Help l keep drinking and cocaine feeling awful today on my settee, not even been able to get my kids to school, and have messed-up yet another job up, it’s getting worse, feel such a failure
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Firstly, it’s so good that you’ve come here to seek help and ask that question. That’s a good sign. I think it means you’re ready to admit there’s a serious problem with alcohol and drugs in your life, and you want to change that?
Great news is - you can! You absolutely can. I know you can 
but it’s not necessarily easy. It takes commitment, determination, and a flat out refusal to drink or use cocaine again - because you know the outcome there, and it’s not what you want, right? It’s not loving nor believing in yourself. You deserve love, joy and to feel good. You need to know you are worth all the love and self-care. And your kids are worth it too. Their education is important. More important than drinking or using. Drinking destroys this joy and love, it’s just poison.
Take this one day at a time. And just reach out here when and as much as you need to 
whatever you do, don’t drink or use - you will only regret it - despite what that lying, manipulative voice in your head might tell you.
I wish you all the very best with this. Positive things ahead
Xxx
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I use kind of a combo of tricks to help in those situations. I pray for strength and if possible do a meditation. I reach out (like this post!) to other people for help. Also I remember the SMART technique of DEADS. It stands for
D - Deny/Delay (say no thank you - just wait. Cravings go away with time)
E - Escape (if you can leave the tempting situations)
A - Avoid/Accept/Attack (find a distraction, accept this is just a moment of temptation and will go away, say NO)
D - Distract (choose to do something else healthy)
S - Substitute (have a mock tail or your favorite sober drink instead)
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Thank you means a lot xx
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You need some serious tools just like the one you used reaching out and admitting you have a problem. You get these tools with serious work at rehab, at meetings, in self help books, online- there are loads of resources. A meeting might be the best place to start, in person or online. It puts you on a path many have traveled before, and every person there is a potential resource. Most importantly right now, you have to commit to not drinking or using while you face this problem. You have to face it sober. Keep coming here. Read the posts. This community has helped me so much. I keep my tools right now rather simple. No matter what idea gets in my head, no matter what my brain tells me, or what urge I get, I never question my decision to not drink. I admitted I have a problem, I accepted it with complete surrender, and I simply do not pick up because I never question my decision to not drink no matter what happens.
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What are you willing to do to get and stay sober?
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I’ve tried to stay focused, kept away from places, kinda isolated myself, but my partner uses and I find it so hard when it’s around me
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Have you tried doing anything recovery related? Meetings, rehab, addiction therapy?
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Do what you can to get your kids to school… it’s very important for them intellectually as well as socially. Maybe you could look for a nearby school bus stop.
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Thought I’d feel better today, can’t pull myself together to get out of bed, kids still sleeping can’t motavate to get them ready, head feels awful, could just sleep, need to keep their school attendance up, it’s all down to me why it’s down, I can’t wait to feel some motivation again
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Please try and get your kids up and ready for school, im not judging ive been in a similar position myself and it only took one incident for social services to become involved, get up, splash some water on your face and have a strong coffee …for now thats your only focus is to get them ready and to school…get up…go do it then we can talk about you after that il be here to talk after that
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An excruciatingly painful experience for me was when I was called in by the headteacher to discuss my drinking, although from where I’m standing now it was a most vital part of my journey in recovery. I eventually got help from a local recovery hub and the amount of support I got was phenomenal.
Please try to get the kids into school today and then you’ll have some free time to work on yourself.
Sending love and strength x
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I have been where your are.
I have a partner that also uses
I have done the I’m not gonna use tonight and then did, and hated myself in the morning, and couldn’t get myself out of the bed pattern
I have even let my kids miss school because i was just coming down and felt terrible.
If i can get clean, you can too. Just keep coming here and checking in. And be compassionate with yourself. You will need a bit of extra rest in the first week or so…(at least I did)
We are here for you 
Everyone here is so supportive. You just gotta take it one day, or hour or minute, or second at a time. And before you know it, you will be able to say I AM FREE!
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Sometimes you gotta build up motivation, you can’t just wait for it to come, you’ll be waiting long time. Or in my case it comes at 3am when I can’t really do anything and it’s gone by the next morning. Anyways you build it up like a snowball effect. Do every little thing you can. Find any reason for yourself. & Remember your kids need you.
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Sounds like you need more help. Do you have family nearby? Could you go to a 12 step meeting or recovery group? This sounds pretty serious. What can you do differently to become a better parent?
Take care
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