Why am I have so many cravings? I don’t get it I mean I lost my brother a month ago. I’m afraid I’m going to relapse I’m 872 days clean and sober!
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Welcome @Marcy1983 to this awesome sober community. Im glad you found us and im so glad youre reaching out for support.
#1 congrats on your sobriety
Im so very sorry you lost your brother so recently. The stress of the grief could be the very thing making you feel unstable in your recovery. Im proud of you for reaching out. Now what other steps can you take to protect your sobriety while you process this major life event?
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It’s easy (er) to stay sober when life is going OK but as soon as it’s not going the way we want it to our default setting kicks in and the coping mechanism we’ve had for years - Hit the fuck it button - seems the only good solution.
You’ve got a lot of sober days behind you so you know the reality of the situation, picking up now changes nothing you know this. I’ve recently had some hard times but sometimes we just have to feel the feels and take it one day at a time.
All the best mate 
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Staying clean and sober takes as much work, sometimes, as it did to get clean and sober. Grief and stress can be very powerful, and as humans we tend to shy away from expressing those, to deny them. The subconscious pressure is still there, still building, until we consciously reveal it.
Lean into your sobriety program even more at this time - service to others is key to taking your own concerns off center. And maybe explore some more help from professionals at this time, specifically to explore the death of your brother and your cravings to identify if there is a connection between them that you can impact.
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having had so many days dont throw it away ,sorry about your brother lost my three brothers but i had friends at my meetings who gave me support , maybe try a recovery program with like minded people there who will understand how your feeling wish you well keep the memories lose the cravings wish you well
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I’m so sorry you lost your brother, that is so sad my heart goes out to you.
Please don’t give in to the cravings it will not help you out will not make things better it will make them far far far worse. Do not drink, you are better off facing the grief sober.
Xx