Why do I keep doing this?

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I messed up and drank today. Breaks my heart. I was doing so good. I have to have surgery on Thursday and that anxiety caused me to drink. I’m dumb. I don’t want to do this again.

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Welcome to the community you have come to a community that is knowledgeable, helpful and caring along with great support
You did it because you are an addict and you let the addict take control of you. Hopefully you will learn that when urges come, you have to say no.
Good luck with your surgery this next week and with maintaining your sobriety. Lots of help here for you.

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You’ll get through this. Pick your self up. Shake it off and keep going. Never give up giving up. I’m by your side. Good luck on Thursday. Wishing you a speedy recovery.

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The sin will rise tomorrow and you will have a new opportunity to choose sobriety.

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If you don’t want to do it again, stay determined that you won’t. Keep yourself distracted, don’t sit around idle hoping you won’t drink. Staying sober is something you have to actively engage in. It is better than the alternative.

Mentally prepare yourself for surgery, and face it head on. One way or the other, it’s happening. It’s better to face it with a clear sober mind than a hungover anxiety addled mind. Tomorrow is a new day, and a new opportunity to kick off your sobriety.

I wish you the best of luck with both surgery and your sobriety. We are here if you need us :heart::people_hugging:

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We do this because we are alcoholics and addicts. What do puppies do until they are trained? Crap all over the floor… we have to train them to ask for help when they need to go outside. Much like the puppy us alcoholic will continue to drink until we find the solution.

I was in your position for over three years, until I started working a program. I would tell myself I wasn’t drinking anymore. It would last an hour, day, week and sometimes 6 months. However when that first drink hit my lips I was off to drink every alcoholic beverage I could within a 30mile radius. Note: I live in a bigger city. There was never enough.