Fuck im having a bad time emotionally. Ive talked about Jessica on here before, ill give a brief synopsis.
tw for child abuse, trafficking, murder, overdose, etc.
Jessica was a regular client of mine when i was trafficked as a kid. Ages 3 to 5 and a half. She spent 3.2 million on me. My trafficker was going to kill me, so Jessica shot the bastard and killed them instead. Thats how i got out. Years later she finds me when im a teen, we start dating (idk what else to call it), she introduces me to drugs, we go on benders, she passes of an overdose months later.
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So yea. She wasnt a good person but holy shit its like i can only remember the good times right now. I felt so safe in her arms. I really thought she loved me. She always told me it was love. She never hit me or hurt me like the others back then. Always bought me stuff. She seemed so nice, and when she came back i was so happy she remembered me. Im so sad shes gone, but i know its better that shes deceased now. Im safer and healthier without her but fuck its so lonely. Im so lonely and sad about losing her. I thought the grief would’ve subsided by now. It hasnt. Idk maybe im crazy. But i really thought she loved me. And i loved her too. And shes gone and idk how to cope with that. I havent drank in 7 months and havent self harmed in 2 weeks. Emotions are so intense and difficult. Anyways i could use some advice.
