Hello I’m new here. Just worked past my first panic attack over all this. My husband got admitted to the hospital Saturday with pancreatitis and very enlarged liver. His detox is so bad he is hallucinating and completely out of his mind. He’s on lock down now. We were drinking partners also. I haven’t taken a drink today from seeing him the way he is. All I have is the shakes and horrible mood swings right now. We were so bad we were drinking the 1.75lt of Jack Daniels a day. I never imagined it would happen like this and all the bad stuff of hallucinations and insomnia. I just want to talk to someone that knows about or has experience both sides of this situation. I want to be sober. It so hard on me because I have no one to talk to. My husband is my best friend. And now I can’t talk to him.
Oh my, K. I’m so sorry you are going through this. I’m sending you and your husband prayers for strength and comfort. I’m glad he is in the hospital. Recovery from pancreatitis can take awhile but one of my good sober buddy’s survived it and has never been healthier. It was his bottom. You and your husband can stop digging too. Please keep checking back in.
Thank you so much. I’ve been crying for two hours now. I just poured 3/4 a bottle of Jack down the drain. We have to do this. I just feel so helpless and like I’m not helping him because he’s alone and I don’t know how to deal with it. And I also have our kids so my stress is so high I wanted a drink so badly so I poured it out. Thank you for the welcome and support
I too had the shakes, hot to cold every 20 min and a grumpy asshole each time I did my own home detox. Last 7 month run I had was too much and I was paranoid of all people&things, throwing up with every sip of anything–water or booze and was seeing weird shit. I went to rehab for help.
Getting sober is hard but it can be done. Support is here, in the rooms of AA too. Being and staying connected daily with like minded people is key.
Hugs to you and your family. This struggle is real and real hard but it does get better. Just worry about today & what you can control which is only-- your own actions and attitudes.
Thank you for such kind words. I never imagined the hardest part is now 
Welcome here and I’m glad you took the time to find this place. This place helped me to become and stay sober and I hope it will do the same for you. But it’s going to be a tough ride at the beginning but you can do it!
At the end it’s so worth to work for!
Becoming a better you! A better partner and a better mom for your kids.
Be here much, there is so much info to find here. You can use the search bar above to find all the topics you want to reed.
Info about detox, rehab, AA, online meetings, etc.
Maybe seek some extra help that way?
The first year of my recovery I was here every day to check in sober. Talking about my cravings, bad sleep, anger mood and other stuff where I went trough. It helps to vent here because here they know where we are going trough. We are all addicts, some sober for are short time some for ages and some still drinking ore using.
No matter what, we understand where you are.
So I hope I see you around here often to talk, blend in and become a part of this community.
It’s a good place to be.
Again welcome!
I hope your partner will be well soon 
Claudia 
Im here for you, you are not alone. Keep talking on here we can all help you to get through this, this site is amazing but the people on it even more so, im 77 days and couldnt have done it without these guys. Sending you my love and hugs, you can do this and you will get through it 
Good for you for pouring out that bottle! It’s gonna be better for both of you to not have any alcohol in the house at all. In this early stage, you will need to watch yourself for signs of issues with alcohol withdrawal as well. If you were drinking as much as he was, you could have issues like he is having, too. If you feel like you are starting to lose rich it’s reality, please call for help or get to an ER right away. Withdrawing can be dangerous. I am an ICU nurse and an alcoholic. If you have any questions, feel free to ask. We work with detoxing patients often so I can talk from experience on the clinical side and the personal side. Good luck to you both!
I’m a hot mess right now. They just called and said they are about to restrain him and possibly sedate him. He’s not responding to adivan or haldol (I’m sure I spelled them wrong). They were calling security why I was on the phone and I could hear him yelling for me. I’ve never felt so helpless in my life. And my dumbass only wants to take a shot to help deal with my emotions and I know that’s not right and I know I won’t allow myself to but mentally I’m not okay.
I completely understand. You’re used to coping by using alcohol. I can tell you from the clinician’s side, your husband doesn’t have any idea what is going on right now. They are going to restraint him and sedate him for his and the staff’s safety. It’s actually a good thing for him to be sedated through this first part of DTs. It will cause less strain on his heart, keep him safe, and allow him to rest. He will be ok. He’s right where he needs to be. Big hugs to you! 
Thank you so much. It is very nice to have someone to talk to. I messaged 7 of my “friends” and got alot of that sucks or drink another one text and no one helped so that’s a huge eye opener also. They did restrain him, I have to go pick up his belongings in couple hours. Waiting on dr to call her back to let us know the next plan of action since he’s not responding to meds. I really appreciate you all helping me get past this night.
More than happy to help!
You have taken a physical action that builds on your desire to be sober. That’s a hugely important step! Your goal today is to put a sober head on your pillow tonight, no matter how you feel, no matter what. And you can do that, you can get the strength to do that.
Here’s some ways people have dealt with getting sober, I’m sure something in there will resonate with you.
I was in a very Vivid delirium for 5 days thank God somebody got me into the hospital and there they told me if I didn’t get into the hospital the day I did there was a very good chance I wouldn’t have come out of the delirium!!! You can die from detoxing off alcohol. Got home I couldn’t get anything to drink so I drank a bottle of rubbing alcohol and wound up in the hospital again!! I was sober 21 year’s and stopped going to meetings. Took me almost 3 years to get sober again. I am truly blessed to have made it back…The progression was phenomenal and almost killed me. Meeting Makers Make It