It’s not just us gaslighting ourselves.
If you don’t operate as it’s demanded (work, family, friends) others start to make unwanted comments like “you should see a Dr., looks like you’re depressed, why do you behave like this, my favorite: if you think about this all the time you’ll get worse so ignore it!”.
I’m glad I’m kinda alive today. Temperature did rise from 2C up to 16C including storms 
And I started bleeding Saturday evening.
Today is such a day. And I’m full of rage! My coworkers said “go eat something, breathe, then come back” 
Everything makes me explode today.
Maybe I can use this rage later for working out 
My type of mandala drawing sometimes!
I now know why my performance in working out was so bad yesterday. I didn’t sleep this night, well, a little bit but not much and not good.
This month the bleeding was almost 10 days late, and when it’s that late, it’s very painful.
So I’m still laying in bed at almost 1:30 pm, bleeding like a maniac.
And the only thing I can use are pads because tampons make me so sore 
I hate pads
Ok, I stop crying now and try to get up. I need to bake a bread.
I do hate the uncertainty with the cycle. We don’t know when, how long, how heavy or how painful it will be. It disrupts everything else going on in our lives too.
Sorry that you are in such pain. Sending comforting energy and hope the pain lessens quickly.
I too can only wear pads and understand the discomfort. Remember that it won’t last. Much love Sabrina 
Last year I was all over the place with mine and I’m thankful to be somewhat back in schedule. Still uncertain with all the above things but at least I haven’t missed one in months. I do hate the cycle but just not ready for the no cycle phase.
Thank you, you’re always so sweet Jasmine 
I took some pain meds, wear my most comfy clothes and the toilet is only some steps away 
Yesterday was pure horror, today it got better already.
For me the worst is the irregularity. Either a cycle or no cycle, but this mess I have rn? Pure rage!
I’m very much looking forward to that part of our female lives without a cycle.
It definitely has its perks!! The end of the rage is a nice one and of course, no blood (gushing or dripping). Relief is a nice word to describe when you reach the other side. And it does happen…we do move past that phase of life. 
Thinking about all of you.
For you who can see this, it’s very understanding and compassionate.
The You Tube.
Did you ever try a menstrual cup?
Using this since 12 years or so.
Changed my life and relationship to my period. Especially for swimming and just… For everything. Holds be back from nothing I want to do. (lol didn’t OB promise this once?)
What would I be without this little helper😅
Takes a bit of practice but it is so worth it.
Thanks for not flagging this
Wanna laugh? I own 2 of them and forgot I had them
Yes, they are a challenge tho. I can’t imagine to use them at work, I’m too afraid to uhm…cause a blood bath because I didn’t get it out smoothly 
That’s awesome Juli! I had some similar ones years ago, a different version. Worked pretty well, definitely be over toilet for removal!
didn’t realize you could swim with them in. may have to give them a go. I’m always so afraid of them not working or having an accident.
They were great at the beach for me.
Oh that is a game changer…thanks ladies. I will look into getting me some
Nooooo!
I have a bigger one and a very small one for the end.
I also used to like my ‘mooncup’ wtaf? Who came up with that name.
I’m due my wonderful monthly today so will use it now I’ve remembered I have one. It was super handy.
hi ladies!! i loved my moon cup so much but i just couldn’t get anything to fit right after i gave birth. this past year i started using period panties - game changer!! does anyone else here use them? i feel like they’re rarely discussed but i love mine. nothing inside me, no sticky tape anywhere, just underwear like i’d wear on a regular day! i have 5 pairs so i can wash one or two a day and it lasts my whole cycle. for anyone looking for an alternative, i recommend trying it! i use the brand bambody 
also i have to say, i have been in an exceptionally good mood these past few weeks - literally just beaming every day, so happy to be alive. then yesterday came, and i felt this dark cloud come out of nowhere for no particular reason. it was such a stark change in the weather. i even burst into tears at some point. of course today i started bleeding. but wow that dark, gloomy, ominous part of our hormonal cycle is so real!!! we really need to take such good care of ourselves sisters
I was thinking about period panties but it’s so overwhelming 
There are a gazillion brands on the market now and that stuff is expensive.
The brand you mentioned is not being sold here
Love ve this reminder.
So so very happy to hear that you have been in such a great mood. Hope you get that back once this cycle clears. Our bodies go through so much hell emotionally and physically.
Thanks for the tip in the period panties. Will look into these as well 
