Oh that’s a good feeling. I’m still waiting but starting to feel the pain so hopefully soon 
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I was feeling better yesterday evening, why do I wake up with a migraine again?
I’m so angry of this damn body 
I told my coworkers that today I’d come to work, but I can’t
That’s the worst 
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Day 19 and the mood is spiraling down. It’s loud and dark.
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Does anyone else get like extremely depressed in the 2-3 days prior to starting to bleed? I mean, I’m not just a bit low, but feel so incredibly defeated and doomy and sad and ragey, like every single negative emotion is attacking me at once. It happens once a month, every month and the symptoms ease a little once I recognise if for what it is.
It used to be a lot worse when I was drinking. Could probably link this PMS despair to most of my mh hospital visits. But I’m starting to think I get a bit more worse than other people…?
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Yes. Probably the week before and intensifies days before. Despite my Sertraline meds I can easily feel a dark rage, anger, despondency and desperation fill my days. I get short with people, arsey and quite negative. I’ve been waiting to see the gynaecological unit now for 14 months due to this and to see what options they have alongside Peri-Meno symptoms. I went to talking therapy like they asked. I switched from Escitalapram to Sertraline. I do Breathwork and Pilates and exercise. I take evening primrose oil daily. I lost weight and stopped drinking.
But still these black days come. As soon as my period is nearly over I feel better and start to nest and get activated again. It’s honestly like a weight is lifted from me. Madness.
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Hi @Amy30 and @Tragicfarinelli that sounds rough. I definitely used to get the dip in mood and would suspect most people do, but that does sound worse than others get.
I do recognise what you are describing and wonder if my citalopram were dealing with some of it. Now I am off them I am feeling so vulnerable - it keeps reminding me of me in my early 20s, sitting in the car before work in tears, or having to go to bed as completely unable to deal with emotions. I thought I had “outgrown” these lows after 20 years of life throwing stuff had beaten me down and numbed me, but maybe it is still all there?
Sorry, not sure how helpful my reply is. I am a hormonal mess atm clearly, but not due to periods. Apparently hormones have made my short sightedness worse since the beginning of pregnancy, and I am even moving into the needing reading glasses phase because of that. These changes could be temporary or permanent. How do hormones cause changes in eyesight?
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It makes complete sense that the pregnancy hormones might also be wreaking havoc for you. 
I think people with anxiety never lose it, just manage it better or worse at any moment. If you need chemical help then you need it. I’m sorry you can’t take it at the moment.
The only thing that helps me is to isolate the actual anxiety as a kind of ‘object’ or thing that I know happens and will appear, and I need to be hyper aware of. I literally think to myself ‘this is temporary, it’s hormonal feelings, not real truth, don’t let it beat you’. I try to stay distant from it. Often times now, I have quiet periods (ha) around my pre period and I tell my partner that I’m going thru the mood it brings and I’m sorry if I’m snappy and weird, this is what’s happening right now.
It kind of just helps to objectify the feelings and study and disseminate them. For me they don’t get as deep under my skin that way and I can healthily detach a little and do what I gotta do to get thru those days.
Sending love, hoping pregnancy is treating you well Jenny.
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Thank you, that is really good advice. I had forgotten what this level of anxiety feels like. I do think you are right and some people are just prone to it. Modern life often doesn’t help!
I am physically so much better now, thanks. Over half way and able to exercise again which is making a huge difference.
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Don’t know what to say anymore.
I am realy down on my knees.
I left a conversation whispering “why the fuck didn’t I finally took the bridge pier today”
In kitchen she was jelling at me about the blueberries. When she left I broke down on the kitchen floor. I realy don’t know why I live. This is hell. My self esteem is fully gone in the meantime. Day 24
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Hugs to you Julia
What’s going on?
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What’s always going on 
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hormones, life & brainfuck?
in general or do you suffer from any life’s specials? talk it out, vent, it helps
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All of this…
No special event.
But I can’t stand this anymore.
I don’t want all this shit anymore.
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What shit?
Sorry, I’m not up to date what’s on your plate currently. Please cut me off when you don’t want to share. Just wanna be there for you
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I do sorry love
Our emotions and mental anguish can be 1000 x’s magnified during the cycle and as we get older our period menopausal crap just adds more salt to the wound so to speak.
Depression, sadess, empty thoughts and feelings of hopelessness are all normal (for some it is super intense and therefore may need some hormonal therapy to adjust the bodies rollercoaster).
Sending you strength and love. 
I’m so over the moon that I finally got my period and all the symptoms have a reason for being here but am on line and needles with my emotions which is very unnerving. It is not easy going through this month after month but is easier when you can spot the signs and find ways to ease the symptoms.
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Survive. Eat ice cream. Listen to loud music. Cry. Don’t move an inch and ride it out. This will pass.
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Two days until my supposed period…
I FEEL THE RAGE. 
I’ve already started two arguements by noon.
Channeling calm 
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How are you managing now? I never understand why it has to be so awful every month
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Today hasn’t been good. I’m in full rage and self hate mode. Door didn’t get fixed, toilet is making ridiculous noises and I missed everything I wanted to do today for nothing.
I need an emotional hazmat suit…
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Cramps started.
New cycle starts.
Mood is brilliant.
Hair is shining.
Skin is glowing.
Body feels yummy.
And this was not only the thermal bath.
Girls what a Rollercoaster.
2, 3 says ago, I and my life would have been saver in the psych ward. And this will return…
Sending strength @Tragicfarinelli and all other sisters!
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