So I took my daughter to bingo tonight at a church hall they raise funds for the towns carnival . They put it on the table and it was like time stood still for both of us , we’re just sat there staring at it and she says what are you gonna do with that and I can’t explain the feeling I had except that I had no urge whatsoever to drink it and I felt completely at peace with it . Immediately my mouth said to her I’m gonna give it back for them to put in for next time . I couldn’t think about going round asking if anyone wanted it in case they said no most of them were old and the ones that weren’t didn’t look like drinkers (I mean how many drinkers are at bingo on a Friday night ???) but as soon as I picked it up my heart started banging an I started sweating like it felt an insanely long amount of time to walk to the front of the room with it and give it back…The only way I can describe it is like I’d just stolen a million pounds and needed to hand it in and rid myself of the guilt it was a horrible feeling I couldn’t even hold it without the terror coming back to me . has anyone felt like this ?
I personally haven’t experienced this, but I would probably had the same reaction. Good on you for passing it back and making it clear to your daughter that there was absolutely no other option! 
I can relate. Once i felt the amazing results of recovery i get scared if my recovery feels threatened. That kinda sounds like what you felt.
Proud of you for getting thru that uncomfortable situation
I hate this.
I stopped being a member of the social club at work cause they’d put on free raffles and guess what 90% of the prizes were?
I hate the assumption that drink is a nice “prize”.
PS I can relate to the sweating and heart beating.
Quite early in my recovery a friend gave me these two small bottles of gin. They didn’t know I’d stopped and I didn’t want to be rude by refusing the drink.
All the way driving home my heart was pounding, I felt like I was in danger.
When I got home I didn’t take them into the house, I knocked on my neighbours door and luckily she accepted them.
Thanks @Cjp @Badger @Dirk .I definitely felt it was wrong for me to be in possession of it like I was holding a stick of dynamite in my hands , think it shows I’m traumatised by my drinking and don’t want it back
That is an inspiring story. Especially when you said you had no urge whatsoever. I was at a fundraiser once and the top price was literally a pyramid 6 feet high of tons of different types of hard, alcohol, beer, and wine, mind you, this is when I was actively drinking. And I told my friends right there that I don’t want to win that. If I did, I might have been dead now. But giving it back into the fundraiser like you did is the ultimate great decision. It helps support the church, but also it says thanks, but no thanks. Great job, great story!
Not winning at bingo, but in the past I felt oddly guilty refusing alcohol, or having a person pass me alcohol on the assumption I was drinking. I just wanted alcohol to not even be a consideration in my life. Now I can refuse alcohol in the same way I refuse gum, I just don’t want it.
Thank you @Bobbyw. No I felt nothing towards it completely serene until I picked it up to take it back . I was a chronic drinker that had to chugg jack Daniel s outside of Tesco as soon as it opened in the morning just to get back home to calm my shakes and then keep putting it in while it was coming out the other end . I’ve come along way and to those on here it can be done 
Yes!!! I was the same, except almost exclusively, beer, and lots of it, maybe a bloody Mary, and those were meant to stop my shakes. It’s interesting, everyone has their triggers, mine was not stopping at this gas station on the way home from work that I swear to you, I stopped probably 1000 times. I was just in there the other day to get a cold can of flavored coffee for the way home. I passed right by that beer cooler, and not only was not tempted, my stomach kind of did a somersault even thinking about it. It repulsed me. And I was trying to figure out why I used to do it. If anybody is new and reading this, You can do it! And I’m telling you, every single damn aspect of your life will improve. Thank you, Bobby.
Well said . I don’t think about it in Tesco anymore it does get easier
I’m just past 7 months and drinking alcohol feels like it is illegal now! Even my wife who hasn’t drunk since I stopped but hasn’t said she’s going to stop drinking, doesn’t feel right about having one. We both know how much better our lives are without it.
Thank you for sharing your story, it was like a funny little movie in my head reading it.
Every single damn aspect is right!! I am dead set the LAST person I thought that could quit alcohol but I did it.