The worst was the one where I let my wife and kids down. So, all of them.
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Drinking too much, injecting a good amount of insulin, walking away sitting in the night, raining, freezing, calling people I couldn’t and shouldn’t have, stumble back somehow, ending drunk and in severe hypoglycemia in bed.
Did that several times. Fear and some survival reflex saved me. 
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Alcohol isn’t my addiction but I am also type 1 diabetic - and I know how scary it is when you’re having bad hypoglycemia. I feel for you there 
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Ohh I’ve been there , saying some horrible shit to my wife , when I sobered up and was told the horrible disgusting things I said , I hated myself
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Hmmm, woke up in the hospital with a tube down my throat, 2 of my kids staring at me telling me I died 3 times, and had a BAC of .39…countless times of waking up on the side of a road because I got “pissed off” and was “walking home” Man, there were soo many terrible, discusting nights 
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Another one for waking up in hospital. Broke a bunch of ribs and one of them pierced my lung.
Still didn’t quit drinking for 7 years after that 
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@KRae I can imagine how horrible that is but important thing is your here and your sober today 
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Had a hit and run, luckily nobody got injured because I crashed into a parked car.
Waking up after being totally blacked out on a parking lot where truck drivers woke me up to see if I’m still living.
Collapsing in a club out of nowhere.
Kissed a random girl in a club while my girlfriend just walked in and saw us. Btw this was the 1st time I stopped drinking and it hold for the longest time, I was sober for 3 years and it was the best time of my life.
Many times at work, threw up in the toilet but the toilet was blocked but I still threw up, it was such a mess. Next day I saw the toilet door was blocked and I didn’t knew why, I came in and saw the disgusting shit and remembered what I’ve done, so I had to clean up the mess.
Invited some friends to work in the garden but I passed out and just went to bed sleeping and my friends were waiting in the garden for me to come back.
Driving drunk with my dads company car, crashed a tire (twice) just got out and walked home and smoked a Joint.
There are plenty other stories which don’t come to my mind atm or I can’t remember.
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Damn man… glad you’re still alive and on here !!!
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Thanks man, yea I think I can be happy, also happy to found this place!!
It’s hard for me to talk to my friends or family because most of them have the same alcohol issue and don’t see it or lie to themselves.
It’s so weird that such escapades are totally ok in society or at least in my circle. People are just laughing and saying that’s normal you’re a man, men do such things while drunk! It’s ridiculous seriously!
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I went to a party that I shouldn’t have gone to. Left blacked out with someone I didn’t go with, who brought me back to my car and let me drive. I drove from my friends house across townlines. The only thing I remember is swerving to miss a mailbox. I woke up crashed into a tree on someone’s front lawn. 2 feet in either direction and I would’ve gone through their living room. I don’t remember leaving the party. I actually don’t remember most of the party. But I remember being put in handcuffs for my 3rd dui. There’s so many blackout stories, The only reason it’s my worst is because of the crash and dui. I’ve made a complete and total asshole of myself hundreds of times and I don’t remember any of it.
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I just want to point one thing out. We, as addicts and alcoholics, have done many awful things to others and ourselves. The Big Book says some wonderful things about this. It gives all of us a set of promises if we work the 12 steps. Part of those promises are “we will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.” It hasnt been until I worked my 4th and 5th step that it started to feel that way but its referring to making amends to those we have harmed and feeling the promises starting to unfold. I believe in those promises because I’ve seen them happen in others. We all can achieve them if we work for it. If you want to read them they start at the bottom of page 83 to the middle of page 84. Everything we have done has lead us to this exact moment in time. Stay strong and rely on your higher power. Ya can’t go wrong.
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