You have got to be kidding me 😭

[Klh1998]

Well if you’ve seen any of my posts in the last like 7 months…. I’ve been having a very hard time. Maintained my sober plan and I’m doing okay there. But this event has really really shaken me and shaken my grip on my sobriety.

I have to put my bunny down.

Please, PLEASE no comments about “it’s just a bunby” plenty of people have made their point clear on how they think the soul and life of a bunny is not the same as a dog or person and that’s not what I’m here for. This bunny has been one of my best friends for the last 6 years of my life. She was perfectly healthy one minute and on her deathbed the next. She’s been here for it all. My fall from grace, My recovery, my sobriety…. Everything. I’ve held her through everything and my heart is broken. So please for the love of God if we could keep comments safe and supportive here I’d really appreciate it.

Here’s what happened:

Yesterday morning when I went to feed our buns, I noticed Blu hadn’t moved from where she had been the night before. When I took her out, she couldn’t use either of her back legs.

I spent hours trying to help her and hoping it was something minor. I watched her closely, kept her comfortable, and tried to figure out if maybe she had injured a foot or was simply sick. We eventually took her to the vet hoping they would tell us she needed medication or treatment.

Instead, they informed us that her spine has been severely damaged. They explained that this can happen with rabbits because of how much power they have in their hind legs, and that this was likely sudden and not something we could have prevented. They told us that even if we could afford surgery, she would likely have permanent nerve damage, chronic pain, and very little quality of life.

They recommended euthanasia.

Unfortunately, the cost quoted to us was far more than we can manage right now. They sent us home with pain medication and critical care food so we could keep her comfortable while we figure out the most affordable way to help her peacefully. The last thing I want is for her to suffer.

So I spent today calling places. The best option I have is to take her 2 hours away to have her put to sleep, then carry her body to a new location for cremation so she can come home. We rent so I can’t bury her here. I’m just…. Guys I’m a fuckin mess

Add on:

Yes, for the few dms asking we did start a go fund me. I’m pretty sure posting it goes against guidelines though and I don’t want to break any rules.

[Klh1998]

This is a picture of my sweet girl

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Oh my she looks sooo sweet. I am so so sorry about ur bunny. I think its very insensitive for people to have said what they said to u. U wont be hearing that from me. My god, i even cried when my flowerhorn fish passed. I get it. Your bunny has been with u thru A LOT! Please stay connected to the forum thru this difficult time. Your probably going to feel a lot of emotion come up. We are here for u. Sending u hugs

[spgand28]

Fellow bunny mom here.

I am so so sorry to hear about your bun. What a devastating accident.

I agree. A lot of people don’t know much about these sweet gentle creatures. I just love rabbits so much and can completely understand how you feel right now.

I’ve had rabbits for a long time that I’ve lost to old age and I’ve had rabbits that I’ve lost to freak accidents similar to yours. No matter the circumstances, it’s all so hard emotionally because as our little companions, they have still been a part of our journeys. They’ve seen us grow and we’ve seen them grow.

You are clearly a loving bun mom. And you are doing all that you can to maintain her comfort while you prepare for her next journey.

So sorry you are dealing with this.

[Madds]

I’m so incredibly sorry about your sweet bunny

[Klh1998]

Thank you

[Klh1998]

Thank you. You’re the only person I’ve heard from so far (aside my fiancé who grew up with bunnies as pets) who has raised them and loved them and lost them.

My heart is broken. We have 2. We have Blu, the injured one, who is about 6 years old. And we have Charlie. That’s a whole other aspect I’m scared about. As I’m sure you know when bunnies bond they bond really hard. We’ve had Charlie for 8 years. He was in the pound 8 months before we found him, with a foster for 6 before that. They estimate he’s between 11-12 years old. Most bunnies don’t live that long. He’s our blessing. He’s very docile, very intelligent. Every vet and rabbit owner has said he’s an anomaly. We’ve been preparing ourselves to lose him. The vet said getting him a companion likely really helped his life span. They share a hutch. They live together, eat together, sleep together, play togetjer…… the vet warned us yesterday that we need to prepare for him to follow shortly after and it shattered my heart. Blu is only 6. We didn’t expect to lose her so soon. She’s a pure bread Holland lop, from a strong bloodline. Our other is a bit of a “mutt”

The fact I can’t see my other bunny behaving so depressive scares the shit out of me. I wasn’t prepared to lose either of them but definitely not both.

Whats hard is she’s not sick. Not in urgent need of being put to sleep. They gave us pain meds to give her until we can find the affordable solution but if she’s not moving she’s her normal bunny self. Knowing that makes it so much harder. Looking at her KNOWING that there’s a date in place, knowing I’m saying goodbye as we speak it is crippling.

Sorry… Thanks for listening. I’ve never lost a pet before. Charlie was my first ever pet as an adult. Blu was the second. Growing up my dog was taken to the pound instead of growing old with me. I’ve never experienced this. I already struggle with the concept of death. I love this innocent little creature. I just don’t understand why this had to happen to her.

[SassyRocks]

Oh no, this is so sad and I am so sorry. Your bunny looks so sweet. We had a bunny growing up, he was gentle and feisty too. Unfortunately all people aren’t always understanding or compassionate and I am sorry that is adding to your stress. Sending much care your way.

[Klh1998]

Thank you very much. I will make sure to give Blu a pet for you!

[McDude]

I’m so sorry to hear this. You’re in my thoughts.

[Mallory]

I’m so sorry to hear about your bunny. The animals in our lives are not pets. They are family members who share our best times. And a huge source of love in our worse times. Sending hugs

[erntedank]

Sending hugs and comfort to you and your family, two- and fourlegged. I’m so sorry
Our pets are family. Such a sudden occurance is shocking, please take good care of yourself, you need it.

[Tragicfarinelli]

So sorry to hear this. I’ll keep you and bun in my thoughts.

[Violagirl]

I’m so sorry to hear this bunnies are amazing creatures, intelligent, charming and tremendous fun.

I’m really sorry for what you are going through. Take care of yourself

[Misokatsu]

6 years is a long time to have a pet, and to become very attached and therefore devasted when the end comes. You have my deepest sympathies. I’m sure she had a great life being so well loved.

[Techno_Tequila]

What an absolutely adorable bunny. I am so sorry you are going through this. I have been through it a few times with my animals and I know for sure it is the kindest and most thoughtful thing you could do for a living thing. Be there for your bunny, hug her tight and allow her to climb onto rainbow bridge holding your hand.

[SinceIAwoke]

The animals we share our homes with are family. This is a sad time for you, I wish you peace.

[Merryshoes]

I am so sorry. Blu looks such a sweetie. Our pets are our family. I hope for strength and serenity for you. You will do the right thing, and that is the best you can do for Blu. Sending lots of love your way, for you and bunnies.

[spgand28]

Wow, Charlie has definitely lived quite a long life! Poor thing will be wondering where Blu went.

I do know that bunnies are more resilient than we give them credit for. So maybe Charlie, the little elderbun , will surprise you and make it past the grief and stay with you a bit longer.

I totally get where you are coming from. I had my bunny Johnny for over a decade and he never was truly sick. He was actually healthy. What brought him down was that he had significant mobility issues as he aged. The mobility got so bad that it was about the quality of his life at that point. I was devastated. He was with me through my mid-20’s when I was just a complete wreck. I grew up because of my little man in black. I wanted better for him and I did better for him.

Be the person Blu would want you to be. She would want her human to be happy and healthy.

[Klh1998]

Thank you so much for this