Hi @withered sorry to hear about your relapse. It sucks being on the addiction treadmill. It sounds like you want to get off. That’s a good place to start 
For me, accountability with people other than myself has been big. I am a member of a sobriety group and it has helped me a lot to be accountable to people who know the sober journey and who have been through the same challenges. There’s a list of groups (and good books and podcasts too) here: Resources for our recovery
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