Relevant: Sobriety reminder jewelery or something
If a tactile reminder would help, I would think about what would be most meaningful for me as a reminder and go forward with that, it doesn’t have to be an AA chip. Reminders can be another tool in our toolbox.
Why not try an AA meeting for real? I had no idea what I was missing until I tried it myself instead of hearing other people talk about it. A lot of what I thought about AA was refuted by first hand experience.
Two common hangups people have about AA: 1) I’m not religious, 2) I have social anxiety.
- AA is not religious. Many atheists and people of all different faiths go. There are multiple threads that go into detail on this.
- They understand the anxiety of the newcomer. They expect it. I have a significant anxiety issue, and I make it work anyways. At my third meeting, I “looked like [I was] crawling out of [my] skin”, according to another member who I was talking to about my anxiety. My anxiety is highest before I take the first step out my back door to go. It gets better at every meeting. Even if I’m almost devolving into outright panic, it’s still worth it.
Hope some of that helps.