Ive been scoping and reading and learning and getting nervous and shakey…I’m thirsty. I made a promise to my best friend and rock that i would be done this morning after i made a mess of myself sunday night. I dont think I can do this. Water doesnt cut it. Its just me at home with my kids. I lost my job in oct and no one wants to hire me but i dont know that because i can barely afford to keep my phone on. I want to take the step in the right direction but there is half a bottle of wine, cherry vodka, and a brand new bottle of champagne i got for my birthday that are just chilling in my fridge. I want to do this. Im better than this but i dont know if I can…
Please hang in there! The first 24 hours are rough but you can do it. Think about how Sunday felt for you, your promise to your best friend, how you’ll feel in the morning not hungover. I know it’s not easy at first, but it will get better.
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Throw that shit away if you’re serious. Having those temptations around makes it an unfair advantage. Honestly I’m not sure I could do it knowif there’s alcohol readily available a few feet from me. Don’t do that to yourself. Things are rough I understand that all to well I’ve been unemployed since Nov. I hear about it everyday from my gf even though I’ve been relentless on the job hunt. It’s just that time of year. The power of the mind is an amazing thing. Manifest more positivity in your life by continuing to focus on all the good things around you. Embrace your children, know you have a friend in me if you ever need to vent or talk. Take it easy tonight, you’re on a good path! One love
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Thank you. Thank you so much. Im a complete mess right now. I bagged them up. Called my friend over. Still it going to be 2 hours because they’re still at work. Its just hard because its like the end of something that helps mask the end of my job, my relationship, and what feels like my happiness at times. Im trying. I can do this…thank you.
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You need to throw it away.
I swear I read something that was saying that Protien Calcium and Potassium is what our body ACTUALLY needs whenever we are craving alcohol.Pretty weird but Id give it a try if I were you.
Alcohol doesnt solve our problems, ever.Stay strong girl you got this.
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you got this for sure! Stay strong you will thank yourself later for it!
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This is NOT the end of your happiness trust me.Its the beginning.You gotta get through some hard parts like this in the beginning but when you choose to stay sober its like you are taking off a gloomy veil and you are now free to do and see the things that will actually contribute to your happiness.
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I got this…im going to ask a really stupid question that need not be answered…but why does it feel like im going into panic mode just over the thought of my friend taking my bottles away? Stupid question. I just feel like if i could just finish them or make sure the unopened ones go to a good home/person that i would kind of feel better but not really. They are outside in the snow. Ive moved them a couple times. Time needs to go faster.
Maybe knowing it’s there gives you this sense of relief or security. I know for me it felt that way. You have people here to keep you up talking until your friend arrives.
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That’s just your head waiting for you to find an excuse back into party mode. Don’t give in. These bottles can be left for dead no guilt necessary.
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Yeah, like when i think about the fact that they are leaving I want them. I think im going to put a movie on. Make a list of groceries that are high in potassium and calcium and as soon as i drop my littles off for school shop. Be distracted. Take a shower. Idk…not think about them. I mean i remember leaving the bar last night knowing if i didnt get home soon i was going to black out and i was in the middle of nowhere. I still have acid reflux from whatever i was drinking. Sh*t thing is ive only been binging on the weekends because i dont have my kids and i just moved to a town where i hardly know anyome that doesnt party. Hour to go. Thank you so much everyone.
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I read on this forum about someone comparing alcohol to being in an abusive relationship. I related after my share of physically and mentally abusive relationships. Alcohol doesn’t bring anything good and keeps you where it likes you to be, alone, depressed, full of guilt and shame. I didn’t drink everyday. I’m a binge drinker. Usually when I was alone while my husband was at work.
Be kind to yourself, and patient too. It sounds like you have at least one friend who you can count on during this time. I’m glad you found this app! Good people walking this same journey.
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Hours up, hope you’re doing good. I like that you’re making small plans for your day tmrw. Setting goals and mappin your day will probably help you stay focused on getting things done. I’m off to bed, gonna touch base with u tmrw. Have a good night 
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@Samalamajama how are you doing this morning? I’m so happy to see that you listened to @Nate_Harbison , @Restlesssoul ,and @Leelee77 . They’re good, supportive people. I remember going through the crazy wild animal antsy feeling at the beginning. Your addictive brain messes with you. Just keep walking through this and keep busy. Don’t get stuck in your head. After going through the 3 day mark, you may get very tired and need to rest. Stay hydrated, eat healthier meals to keep your blood sugar at normal levels. You can do this!
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Im doing alright. My friend fell asleep after a while. I havent slept yet. The alochol is gone from the house. I made waffles, eggs, and peeled a few oranges for the kiddos and myself. I feel a bit restless but distracted for the time being. I had to share the full extent of my drinking with my friend because he didnt understand that it wasnt just a one night thing and he seemed really surprised I became so upset over his comment on how he would dispose of the alochol. “Throw it off a bridge!” At least give it to someone else! Ergh…no thats not a good idea either. The night flew by though. School for the kids and then grocery shopping…and then back on here because i will get trapped in my head. Today will be different. Im hopeful…
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I know its weird because the thought of throwing it away made me feel angry.Like no way I dont want to waste it, but I couldn’t stand the thought of drinking again.I think your friend picking it up was awesome also was sweet of them to keep you company.
I love that you are trying to keep yourself busy because thats important.I know the feeling of being in the middle of nowhere its scary, I try not to look back too often on those times.Alcohol is NOT your friend, it doesnt look out for you, doesnt keep you safe, doesnt keep you from saying and doing embarassing and dangerous things, it makes you sick.
Stay strong todays a new day, take on one day at a time I mean it.
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IT does NOT get better. IT (the AA program / fellowship) IS PERFECT. YOU GET BETTER. Guaranteed. It is simple but NOT EASY!!!
HAVE YOU ADMITTED THAT YOU ARE POWERLESS OVER ALCOHOL & THAT YOUR LIFE HAS BECOME UNMANAGEABLE?-----STEP 1
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Congratulations. You have more time than I do. Let’s talk in 10 years!!!
I had to. I was almost dead.
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Hallelujah! In a roundabout way.
I’m not powerless, same as Oliverjava, that’s why I thought ‘no-more’ 66 days ago and stopped.
And now I feel I have power.
I’m not knocking AA of course, because we all have free will. And if everything goes wrong, my free will may take me to a meeting, where I’m sure I’ll be welcomed by good people. Or I might try something else. However, while I have my power and determination, I’ll carry on.
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Amen @Oliverjava and @Charlesfreck .We are all here for the same purpose and to uplift eachother no matter what route we choose. Attraction, not promotion.
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