Hi TS people!
I’m happy to share my 3 year milestone with you all. I celebrated it with my family with a nice dinner in a restaurant.
I’m in recovery since 9 years.
9 years ago I was in a bad state of mind (and body). I was overweight and in a funk with drinking. I was an every day drinker, I started at dinnertime and sometimes earlier when I made dinner. Next morning I mostly could not remember how the day before has ended and how I got into bed. I was an at home drinker so not much people knew about my addiction. Even my partner did not knew how much I drank because I was very good in secretly drinking and hiding bottles.
But then that evening came that I hid my rock bottem. I had enough. This was not the person I would like to be and I knew if I didn’t do something about my problem I would end alone/sick/homeless/dead, etc.
I gave myself 1 year to fix it on my own. If that didn’t work out I would tell my doctor. So I googled for information about quitting alcohol and found a website (a Dutch one, I’m Dutch) with a forum a bit like this one. I quit with the help of it and stayed sober for 5 years.
Then I thought I could drink in moderation and that worked for a few weeks untill it doesn’t.
Drank for a year ore so and it didn’t went that bad as it was before but it was bad enough.
I liked myself much more when I was sober. I missed the energenic me, the sportive me.
So found this app and put the effort in it to be a part of it. And when you relapse you still have your toolbox so I knew how to do it again!
So if you read this: you can do it to! Maybe not the way I did it because every one is different and so is your recovery road. But there are much simmilarities as well.
Never give up! One day it will click in, one day you will have your last day one.
Was this day 1 I had 3 years ago my last?
I do not know, I do hope so! But you can never look into the future, you can only stay sober today. So I focus on that.
I know one thing for sure: I haven’t drank one sip the last 3 years!
Thank you all for being my sober peergroup!
Gratefull for this app and the people in it
Picture of me walking in the early morning a few days ago. A friend saw me and made a picture secretly. This early mornings are one of the best gifts of being sober for me