I been on here for a little over 3 years. Started a topic just like you did. Then I started actively working a gratitude list everyday right here. And I mean every day.
It’s such a powerful tool.
It’s retrained my brain. I look at things differently now.
I also was blessed to learn a lot about addiction from my 2 recovering grown up children. I got lots of tools. Here’s one more for ya.
I found something that works for me. And I keep an open mind to all other types of recovery options. Being active here is my main tool.