This is a tad early, as I officially hit 4 years on Wednesday. The next 2 days will be crazy busy, and I know I won’t get my thoughts down.
A lot has changed in 4 years. Big stuff in the beginning. People, places, things having to do with alcohol are gone. For the most part, they are still gone. I found that my connections to what I cut out of my life were purely due to alcohol. As I grew sober, I had no desire to re introduce them into my life.
My out look on life changed. I am no longer the center of the Universe. I am no longer the one in control. When I figured that out, life got easier. No longer did I depend on my self to control everything around me. I became accepting of the differences in people.
As I look forward, I realize I still need to change, as I dont want to stagnate. I have decided to look for new recovery programs and groups. Not only will it add to my tool box, but it will help me help others.
I think this is very powerful and wise. You know you haven’t “made it”, and that we never really “make it”. There’s always something more we can do to improve ourselves and I think that in recovery, in sobriety, we either continue to go forward or we stop and proverbial treadmill under our feet slowly takes us backward.
Congratulations on 4 years. You of course, will make it. I would love it if you would share what has helped you get to this point, other than shedding what wasn’t working and releasing the illusion of external control! I am always looking to build my toolbox. Thank you!
I will add some links for you when I get a chance, currently at work. In the one place that helped me most in the beginning…the bathroom! Work was a stressor for me, like many. When it got to much, I would come in here…pray, and get on this forum…