what have you tried apart from not drinking to overcome your compulsion? cos that won’t be enough for any alkie or druggie.
you need to unearth and face your reasons of why you need to escape your life. long term, in therapy or at least in depth peer groups and self examinaton.
you need to build a life you don’t feel the need to escape from. long term.
you need to develop healthy habits that make you feel good and comfortable in your body and mind and help you get through cravings and the hardships of life. long- and short term.
you need to surround yourself w recovery 24/7, learn, absorb, engage and share. this forum and many other resources are available. long and short term. Resources for our recovery
I don’t really believe you’ve really fully tried and given it your best effort and still you’re drinking. you need to get to a place where the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of changing. then you gotta grab that chance to change with all your might.
Your #1 tip for sobriety (over 2 years sober)
good luck.