Totally. That’s why the long term work of recovery is to build a life that you don’t want to or have to escape from. That is mostly fulfilling and not terrible to you.
You got time for that. It can’t happen in a few weeks anyway.
Well done on your 50d! Girl boss, yeah. For us it’s also important to learn how to let others in, when and whom, instead of always wanting to do it all ourselves. It’s a long journey, pal.
Some more inspiration and annoying wise words: Your #1 tip for sobriety (over 2 years sober)