I had a really bad nightmare last night where I drank a lot of vodka and blacked out. Feeling those intense feelings of failure and shame was so vivid and has spurred me on not to let it happen. Has anyone else had similar bad dreams?
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Yes, I have those dreams. It reminds me why I do not drink. Appreciate being able to remember the awful feeling of waking up after a night of binging, without of actually binging. Like to think it is my subconscious thanking me for not drinking.
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Yes me too! That heart wrenching feeling of “what did I do…?” It was certainly a good reminder to keep me going, not a very restful sleep though! And reminded me not to allow that behaviour to be repeated
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I had this nightmare last night myself. I was disappointed about having drank and was so angry with myself. Such a relief to wake up and know that I hadn’t actually done it.
Stay strong! You are not alone
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I made a topic about the same subject last night, I got the advise to start and try to meditate, so I guess that’s what I’m going to do, maybe it will work for you aswell.
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I’ve had some very vivid dreams about drinking myself. I was so sure they were real that when I woke up I felt hung over and ashamed. I think they are part of our recovery; maybe our subconscious reminding us of how bad it can be.
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Besides the guilt and worry, I hate the phantom hangover.
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Yes such a relief! The feelings are so real aren’t they, it’s crazy! I felt SO disappointed - I guess it’s just our subconscious telling us how we’d feel if it happened again!
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I had dreams like that, we call them using dreams. I just figure it’s my addiction trying to make me use. Sometimes they are a spiritual attack, i had one where i was trapped in a bottle of liquor and all my friends and my husband were in this life boat and they all had tin cups where they leaned over and just dipped alcohol out of the sea that i was drowning in, because they wouldn’t let me in the boat!
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I hate them so much 
for some reason I’ve been having them every night for the past 10 nights. It’s such a bad feeling. I don’t know why I’m getting them, I don’t have any cravings right now. All I can think is I’m feeling really uneasy about a situation with a friend.
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I just think the disease tries to wreck our recovery because it knows its losing the battle, and so it attacks you when you are most vulnerable. I look at it as a sign I’m doing well in my recovery!
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That’s such a great way to look at it! Thank you for your message. <3
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How funny you said that, im on day 5, and had a dream i got wasted, drank a lot of beer and also blacked out, woke up sad and scared thinking it was real. But thank God it wasnt.
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The absolute relief when you realise it was just a nightmare!! Well done on day 5 - keep up the good work 
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Ues ma’am, appreciate it thank you.
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Yes!!! What a great feeling.
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They are terrible! I had one where I decided to drink and subsequently got into a car accident leaving the bar. I remember sitting in my car hearing the police sirens thinking to myself, “what have I done.” Needless to say I woke up very relieved it was a dream, but also very upset for the feelings it stired in me. I also had one many years back after an especially bad cycle of drinking (I was going through a handle about every 2.5 days)…in the dream I couldn’t find my vodka so I was drinking bleach instead… Still makes me sick to think about 
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Been there too, but it was better or worse depending on how you think about it, I was dunk and having a really good time, made me feel like I was missing out.
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I agree, your mind will try to trick you in way it can to drink and it has a lot of trick up its sleeve!!
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