Hi my name is Gwilym I like in Devon in the UK, I’ve only just started my sobriety, I read a book called I’ll stop tomorrow and that’s given me the confidence to try, I’ve tried before but didn’t have much success but this time it feels different, anyway wish me luck and here is good luck to everyone.
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I was raised up in an alcoholic home parents started drinking when I was 10 and they still do . There was domestic violence issues all the time . Witch took my sister and I out of the home and put in foster care more then once. Ugh it’s a toxic childhood we had I was abused by my parents as well even when my sister was never touched she’s always been considered the favorite child. Now I’m 29 with a 2 and a half year old son whom is my everything in life I have a wonderful fiancé in witch we are separated due to legal issues at this time so my son and I have to stay at my dads place until it’s okay by his po to go home. It’s hell living here him and his new wife are in denial about there drinking and say that they have no problems with it well drinking four to have bottles a night is a problem and anyone would agree . The new wife has a 12 year old that sits in her room and gets no Attention from them . Super sad toxic and I can’t wait till I get out of here once that happens I have to say good bye and remove them and my drunken mother out of my life I have tried expressing my feelings and thoughts and they say I’m crazy and etc I see a therapist and she understands my feelings, and thoughts of why I can’t no longer be associated with them even if it’s family. I have been sober from drinking for 14 days now and it’s amazing how clear I can see situations and just how much it’s destroyed me with drinking and I am going to stay strong and take it day by day ,rough few years got diagnosed with fibromyalgia, arthritis in the neck , slipped discs and the list goes on . I have cerebral palsy and it makes everything worse appealing disability and it’s a mess ! Anyway that’s most of my story I look forward to be involved with this group and wish everyone well and strength to stay sober ! You can do anything you put ur mind to !
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I’m at my 50th day, and everyday feels like “day 1!” Stay strong for her and YOU!! When the thought rises up, picture that beautiful little smile, that I’m certain you adore. Many prayers
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I’m Amanda. Long story short… Went to the Navy at 17 partied pretty hard before then and after. Suffered the trifecta of abuse and eventually had a few suicide attempts because of the trauma. I drank daily with pills and woke up one day and realized that I was a train wreck, so I got my crap together. I went to college and got my degree, and now I’m an LCDC trying to 12 step my way through the world.
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This is my story. I am an addict and an alcoholic. I have been using one substance or another since age 14. I drank til age 35 12 years ago. I was tired of needing a drink to function normally lol or in my mind I was functioning normally. I went to opiates and I liked that way better than alcohol. Eventually got prescription for hydros then percs then opana loved those. Loved those opanas but as I am an addict i was using them wrong sniffing them and using more than prescribed. Then laws changed requiring urine tests and pill counts. I was on 3 opana 20 mgs and 6 oxycodone 15 mgs a day. Well I sold the oxycodones because I would run out of opanas and used that for more opanas or that’s when heroin came into the picture, if I couldn’t find opanas a friend told me about heroin I sniffed it and it wasn’t as good as opanas but I didn’t have to go through withdrawal. So getting back to doctors last December they called me for a pill count and I couldn’t go so they gave me my last scripts and would have to find another Dr. For narcotics. By that time I was doing heroin every day because prices if all pills was ridiculous… The pills were taken from me. I was sick of being sick and I checked into a methadone clinic where I’m still attending love group therapy it helps so much being able to vent 2 days a week. During all my opiate use I had regularly used crack thinking I could quit when I want but methadone makes you crave it and I couldn’t stop using crack and it didn’t help that my significant other used in front of me knowing I was in treatment and still does although I have found a way to stay away from his friends and him when they’re using. I go hide in my bedroom. It took me till October 6 to get sober off everything except methadone. Then on November 17 I slipped, small slip now that’s my date for sobriety. That is my drug story spans over about 30 years, I hope someone young reads this and tries to get help
sooner than I did. That was my drug use story my personal story is during all of my use I raised 3 children all high school graduates. All three are working. The two oldest girls work.at a nursing home and my son works at a fast food. None of them smoke drink or use drugs which is amazing considering my family of chronic alcohol abusers. Way back in 1996 I was charged with diverting medication for personal use. My profession was a L. P. N . I still practiced until 2002. I was guilty and after 7 years of not trying to use and faking screens I pled guilty and recieved my sentence from the professional assistance program and dept of health and ect. Lbut still didn’t get my crap of my life together and went to work as a home care aide for 5 years and then she closed her business that was 2010. From 2010 til 2017 kept getting high,basically any drug would work mostly heroine and opiates then I signed up in 2016December used until February 6 2017 where I still go . Now I hope my life will keep getting better cause the last 11 months has been hard for the 1st five months then threatened to be kicked out of the program, made to go to rehab inpatient now then the last6 months has been great .Finally kicked cocaine in November The new year has been great. Now time to start job hunting .Sorry if I rambled on but this us my story Bye- Bye
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Hi I am Thomas a porn addict since 13 years old. I am 41. With up and downs. I am19 days sober. I still hope my Higher Power to deliver me from this slavery
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Thank you Lauri for your honesty and for sharing
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Thank you for sharing your story. I am 29 years old. I was a daily opiate user…Percs, Narcos, Oxys, and sometimes benzos or adderall. On Feb 3 2018, I purchased a 30mg oxycodone within 5 minutes of snorting it I was found unresponsive by my grandmother who had to perform CPR on me. 2 shots of Narcan to bring me back. All because some ass sold me fentanyl instead. Today makes day 3 for me. I’m talking it one hour at a time!
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My name is Betty and I am an alcoholic.
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Hi Betty, my name is Malli and i am an alcoholic
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I’m a binge drinker, and I have no recollection of sunday night. I made the decision yesterday, I need to stop. I have drank on and off for years. Unfortunately i started drinking at the extremely early age of about 8. The peer pressure from older siblings and their friends. I just want to be done with alcohol…I used to think I could control it by self consciously counting my drinks and cutting myself off. I have learned over the years that is where it all starts, and then I just keep saying just one more. I want to be clean and free from this addiction.
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I am new to this discussion site. I want to help if I can. I also need help.
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There are chat groups to reach out if you need someone to answer right away. Like, encouragement words. I’m still fairly new myself. But I’m 3 weeks in and I am struggling not to pick up a drink…
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Hi my name is Vanessa:crown:
️ and I was a heroin and cocaine and everything I use to be able to push in a needle type of addict. My life changed April 24 2018 when I was admitted to Orlando regional bc they found a absess inside my hip close to the bone not outside inside my body where my walking abilities we’re tooken from me I’ve been here for 39 days and I go home on the 7th of June 2018. I’m going to briefly tell you how this bacteria got their so everyone can be aware that this drug is evil it’s here to kill or to institute people it almost took my Life so April 24 2018. I get to the hospital with a fever chills not being able to walk I had the worse pain more painful then when I had my 3 amazing children. The doctors found I had a absess growing inside my hip close to my bone which was causing all this misery in my life i had a surgery where they drained the absess which say it was the size of a golf ball it’s a deadly situation bc it could of gotten to my heart and entire blood stream I could of lost my leg it has tooken my ability to walk on my own now and I have been stuck to a bed for 39 days hoping this bacteria goes away. It basically got their bc us IV users well I use to be I don’t say im an addict bc my upper power has given me another chance and he is curing my sickness and he will be the one to give me my abilities back and us Christians believe that whatever I was going thru in the past is done and over with I’m a new person I don’t claim to be a addict bc I’m not anymore I don’t agree with how NA introduces us well my friends I’m 32 I have 3 gorgeous kids I’m a warrior (Guerra) I’m Puerto Rican Im a domestic violence survivor as well I’m here to give any help advice I can give to this group I spend alot of time reading about this as addiction that made me hit ROCK BOTTOM Im now facing a DCF case where I loss guardianship rights to my youngest who she was born on methadone maintenance she is 4 now extremely beautiful and intelligent but she is different from my 11 and 8 year old now the therapist are working closely with her being so hyper which I say it’s just here being away from her mami she turned a bit rebellious I believe and she’s currently wit her grandmother which makes me one of the lucky parents being that many kids get removed and have no family and they turn them into the system which my heart goes out to them and I pray for each of those families even the foster care system. Well my story is more touching it has alot more to it but I know that many won’t continue to read and I really wish that I get feed back and questions about anything bc what I’m going thru now has touched me and has really scared me although my upper power Jesus Christ has tooken all fears from me. One piece advice I can give all my new friends is never to hide in the dark don’t hide in the tunnel sobriety brings light into ur life and heart ️ I’m a princess 
to the lord 
I will never change what GOD has given me now in my life I have peace I walk with FAITH it’s my favorite scriptures in the book of Life. Don’t give up God gave me an Armor of righteousness defending against addiction evil and weakness… always remember that Jesus loves you and live only today tackle today with as much power you can tomorrow is tomorrow …baby steps my friends you will get their
He said he would give wisdom to anyone who ask
-James1:5
IAM the light of the world he who follows me shall by no means walk in Darkness but shall have the light of Life…-JOHN8:12:gem:
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I relapsed on Wednesday after 3 months of sobriety I feel like crap. I know better. I did not call my sponsor, I though I could have 1 or 2 but no I was off to the races. I have disappointed my family and especially myself. I don’t understand my mind. I know I can’t have just 1. I am going to AA tonight to pick up another white chip. My life was finally getting better, now I have screwed everything up again!!
Hi harlz.
Congratulations on your 73 three days… I’ll keep u in my prayers… I’m at day 1 and u motivated me a hell of alot.
I smoked weed for 5 years and find it very difficult…
Categorize u with people who don’t do drugs and who really want the best for you… if you miss your ex… well there is a reason y u left him… Look how far uv came.
Do u think if u still had him u would have came this far?
He has to change to… if he didn’t… help him but stay away…
Last advise… always pray… let god go before u go anywhere els
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I’m Margie a 33 yr old woman with 3 kids . 4 yrs ago I had it made I mean I had it all a home a job a family and I got introduced to drugs and lost it all. I lost my babies last year and couldn’t see them at all I was losing my mind using everyday just so I couldn’t feel the pain I overdosed twice and got brought back I couldn’t take it anymore I didn’t have shit n seemed like no one cared but I was wrong I found love n understanding in the NA program and with GOD I got saved and he has helped me everyday since . Yes I do still have temptation and cravings but I ask GOD to help me take it away and he does. He helped me get a job and I get to see my babies this week after not seeing them over a year I’m so excited I can’t wait. I’m also in the market looking for a place to live I finally got a phone everything is going well for me with the help and love from GOD and the NA way of life I’m working the steps currently on step 1 .
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I really appreciate reading everyone’s stories. While I hate to say misery loves company, to a large degree we all share a similar story. Some suffered worse consequences than others (I lost a lot: marriage, job, dignity, reputation, time with kids and sognificanr financial struggles), but clearly there are others who lost more and emerged. What this site has done for me is offer something that has been in short supply recently: Hope. So thanks.
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Hi everyone,
I’m Bill. New to all of this…I’m into day five now, and looking forward!
Glad I found this site.
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My name is Raiann. I don’t know where to start. I guess when I was too young to remember. From what little I have been told my story starts with my mother leaving my brother and I with a babysitter and never coming back. The police were called. Our picture was put in the paper. Does anyone know these children? My father’s mother saw it and came and got us. My Grandparents. That’s when the real hell began.
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