Hey @Hazy , you just described where I was 70 days ago.
I am myself studying and find it hard. I used to compensate the hard work with playing hard, even way after the playing wasn’t fun anymore. I am currently working on a paper that’s needed for next Monday but that I’ve been procrastinating since September, lol. Even right now I feel bad for myself because I am on TS instead of writing - but I have to, because I saw those thoughts of drinking started to hit my head… I realized that I have to let myself do anything else but drinking - because it won’t lead to anything good. The only “good” thing is that when I drink I give myself the right to do nothing and chill, and I have hard time doing it when I don’t drink and I feel guilty of being non-productive.
Maybe right now you don’t have time, but last week I wrote what my plan was at the beginning of this new sobriety attempts. I’ll give you the link if you want to check it out. Making a list of things to do instead of drinking was very helpful. Also doing the advantages/disadvantages exercice did help me.
Hopefully you’ll find some peace and focus for today.