For about 30 seconds today I filled with a feeling I have not had in over 6 months, OK there has been a couple of times I thought a drink would be nice but today I was absolutely disgusted with the fact that I’m not allowed one. Who the hell has decided I can’t have a drink it’s my bloody life and I’ll do what I want thank you very much. It was brief but it was horrible bc everything I learnt just vanished and I had no protection from going to buy some, it was just like the old days and it felt dirty. Cup of tea and shit to eat and it went as quick as it came.
Going to bed sober, Alls well that ends well.
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Thank you for sharing this. This is what we need to hear, what I needed to hear.
You, you prat
And I guess you want a conflict and vomit free life. Well, even sober there is occasional conflict and vomit, but u know, significantly less.
But that self-righteous voice can be a real bastard, good for you for kicking it to the curb.
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It’s becoming apparent to me on my journey that the part of my program that says, do people a good turn and don’t get found out, is invariably going wrong on many occasions. OK I do the gesture and the results are out of my hands but surely upsetting others and myself as a final result is counter productive. People take advantage of nice people, I think they see it as a weakness or an excuse to say what they want bc nice people are too polite to retaliate. For 1 week I’m not going to do anything for anyone and see how that sits with others and my soul.
I went to the shop to buy a drink today and came back with custard creams so Alls well that ends well.
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There is good and bad in everything but what that is is how we choose to see it. I read things on hear like others that I don’t agree with, how can we agree with every opinion from every person from every country and culture and upbringing and belief system in the world, so I can sit and try and convince you that you are wrong and my opinion is far superior to yours and turn the situation into that bad thing or I can move on and stop upsetting myself as I am literally the only person who is suffering right now and try and help a struggling addict or friend in need, hopefully making this situation good. You could argue life is not black and white and there are grey areas in it but once again that would be your perception, personally I like to simplify matters, good or evil, love or hate. I’ve made my choice.
Going to bed sober so Alls well that ends well.
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Congratulations on remaining calm and even doing the good deed!! That’s inspirational for a newcomer such as myself!!!
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