Am I an alcoholic? 20 years of drinking...is it time to admit?

Im back. Posted on the gratitude thread but wanted to document something here in this thread. I am SO FUCKING GREATFUL. I am a greatful recovering alcoholic. Ever since making that hard choice to see if i can do 30 days without drinking my life has improved. I celebrated 180 days on fridays and i’ll get my official sobertime medal for six months on tuesday, nov 1st. And it seems fucking surreal the personal, relationship, and spiritual growth ive made on my sober journey so far.

Started my day out with therapy. This was my second session with Emily and i was a little iffy on her because she didnt seem as excited and proud about my sobriety as i thought she should be lol i know. I know. Expectations. Anyways i shared how im trying to grow spiritually and its difficult because my husband has a HUGE aversion towards the word GOD. Well i found something about surrendering to the universe and it really resonated with me and i thought hey i should share this with my hubby. He thanked me for sharing and i thanked him for reading. I felt like those words were explaining the struggle im going thru right now in aa and i was able to share that understanding with my husband. He was receptive. I was greatful. Tonight we are all going to bed happy.

Tmrw i will read all 150plus posts on this thread to review how far ive come in six months. Ill share more reflections then. Peace lovelies :kissing_heart: :two_hearts: :heartbeat: :sparkling_heart:

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6 month chip bitches
Fuck your old twisted thinking
I refuse to play this tired insane drinking game
A game that has lost its fun long ago

Bigger brighter things for my future
Like hope and joy
Sobriety brings a world of possibilities

One day at a time.

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Adding this here, stole it from a friend :slight_smile:

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When i popped on this thread it went to post #1 from may 11th! I read ur inital post and then to see how far youve come, getting ur 6th month chip, is such a beautiful thing to see! Made me smile :smiley: congratulations my beautiful friend!!!

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That’s my exact approach so far. 47 days. One week longer than I have been my whole adult life (17 years). I don’t plan to start anytime soon. Just gotta do it one day at a time.

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Congrats on your lovely well-earned 6 months chip!! :tada::tada::tada: TY for the insights you share here :two_hearts:

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Wohhooo :tada: 6 months!! Being sober is such a great way to be, isn’t it? Congratulations :orange_heart:

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F***in A man hell yes! I just seen this thread and read you’re first post from May and to see you have 6 months now brought me a lot of joy. I’m so happy for you and congratulations :tada: truly inspiring.

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206 days free.

Coming up on my first thanksgiving sober. I feel anxious, nervous, uneasy. Its not like everyone will be drinking…most likely just my brother. Everyone has been super supportive. Its extremely confusing why i feel so “off”. Unchartered territory i guess. I mean me last year id be shit faced by now. Do i want that? No. Then whats the problem? Im trying to approach it as just another day…

I dont like this feeling

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The feelings are just that. They will pass. So grateful for your presence on this forum.

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You are not alone…
Took me 50 years to admit I am sn alcoholic. 3 years sober now. AA is the answer for me. I had to let go snd do what they told me and work my assssss off.
It’s isn’t easy but doable. Gradually i came to appreciate sobriety more than binges. Best of luck to you. Together we CAN manage this disease!

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Thanks for the reassurance @GentleWarrior I see you brother. Aa is working for me too. Just finished my amends today

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Heard a good share today. You know how you think of people,places, and things you are greatful for. Think about what that feels like. Just be greatful. Not for a single thing. Just a state of gratitude.

I feel calm, joyful, thankful, and greatful. Life is good sober.

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