That’s me. Or better said, that’s my diagnosis. Even better, that was my diagnosis, I don’t think I still meet the criteria after 59 out of 60 group therapy sessions. 19 months of schema therapy. Which where you are probably doesn’t exist, but I am not sure about that. What I am saying is that it is treatable. It takes time and effort yes. And a bit of luck finding treatment somewhere. Schema therapy isn’t the only option. There’s DBT too, and probably more I don’t know about. You’re not a hopeless case Amy!
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Were you ever completely not executuve functioning? I tried DBP. I’ve been in therapy on and off for 10 years. This was my most recent hope. And it’s gone.
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No I have not. I think. I know there are different levels of intensity. ADHD symptoms are pretty similar to ours though. Schema therapy can work for both (sorry if I sound like a broken record).
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I don’t function. I spent a fortune on blood tests, health checks and psychological evaluations. But i still don’t function. And the tests say what I already knew, that I have BPD and I’m fat. For me that means I’m hopeless. I’m a fat alcoholic abused fuck up. No amount of therapy will fix it, I tried it for over a decade. I’ll just keep getting fatter and more fucked up, until I die. At this point, Putin’s bomb would be a blessing. I’m hurt and damaged beyond repair, my last hope is gone
I’ve lost any will to leave. I’ll whatever encouragement I can take
Someone help me
Hang tough like NKOTB! Forum is a little quiet at the moment but someone with wiser words than I will be along soon…
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You’re not alone Amy. I know it feels that way. And I know that feeling. You’re here. We’re here.
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There are no words. I’m a fuckup. I’ll forever be a fuckup.
No one can predict the future mate. Try and take your mind off that. Things will change one way or another.
Did you see your blood test results? I’m currently learning how much basic vitamin deficiencies can fuck us up. I’m not saying it’s a cure all but if things are out of whack it won’t help.
What is it that you want to be able to do today that you can’t? Never mind whole life stuff, just one tangible thing you’d like to be able to do right now? Is there anything you can do that gives you a little bit of peace and happiness right now, in your situation as it is? Rather than what you think it should be…
When I was off work, depressed and fatigued to fuck I found something like a cup of hot chocolate, or a cold juicy orange, or a warm shower were good things to just feel something nice for a few minutes.
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I am sorry you are feeling so defeated. I wish I had some helpful resources or words for you to make your pain go away. Please just know that even tho we have never met, I see you and appreciate you and I am glad you are still here and fighting. 
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