My next appt is mid-april.
I sent a very strong worded text to him tho. And my husband took away my pills, so I’m safe for now.
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Glad to hear you’re safe for now and that you updated us here too 
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I’m so close to devolving into undignified name calling on your account. You can file a complaint with your state’s medical board or medical licensing authority. If you ever have problems with a psychologist, the approach is different, but since psychiatrists are just trained in how to dispense drugs for mental health, that’s where you go. If you ever decide to.
I’m glad you are safe for now. In the end, there is very little we can do on our end to fight against the maelstrom these medications are causing you. Have you tried keeping a journal of all your thoughts, feelings, and distresses that these medications are causing you on a daily basis? It might help, it might not, but it will be a very concrete record of what you are going through due to these drugs.
Do you have a psychologist you’re able to talk to? Will your insurance pay for both a psychiatrist and a psychologist? If they will and you don’t have one, looking around and getting on a waiting list for one might be a really good idea. They might also know of a psychiatrist to recommend you to in order to help you get off some of these mediactions properly.
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I am messed up. I honestly don’t know what to do right now.
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I’m shopping online, trying to get an appointment with someone this week. My shrink told me to find a new one if I’m not happy with him, so I’m trying. I took a citalopram last night and I’m feeling less cryey and suicidal. I think the shrink’s obsession with getting me off them within a few days while adding a whole cocktail of drugs to the mix made me feel the way I was last night. But I’m definitely a bit better today.
I’m hoping the next shrink isn’t a quack. 
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Update! I may have found a new shrink. She’s highly recommended and I’m calling tomorrow in hopes for an appointment. Not sure what to do in the meantine. I’ve upped my citalopram to normal dose, and will try stopping all the other stuff. I’m a bit worried about wothdrawals but I haven’t been on the cocktail for long, so hopefully I’ll be ok.
I really hope this new person can actually help me, take me seriously and not treat me like a joke. Which is what that quack did.
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For the past few weeks, I’ve just been existing, not living. I’m down.
Tomorrow I’m seeing the new shrink. Wish me luck as I can’t live like this anymore. I’m depressed, flat and low. I need help and I’m trying to get it.
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I sure hope it all goes well tomorrow. Finding the right combo of meds has been a very long road for you. Sending positive vibes your way.
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I love that you keep showing up for yourself. Sending positive juju things fall into place for you. Keep fighting the good fight, you are worth it, truly. 
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Good luck with the new psychiatrist. I hope you’re able to get the help you are looking for.
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Hi everyone who’s still following the insanity that is my attempts at getting psychiatric help. New shrink good. Very good. She was a bit surprised at the cocktail of meds I’ve been on, so she reduced / cut off my ambien, lorezapam and seroquel. Which is a good thing. She wrote me citalopram, as I’m dependent of it after 10 years. And she wants me to have bloods done so we can rule out any physical causes to my symptoms. I also might have ADHD, as I suspected all along. The doctor wants me to do an ADHD evaluation and get the health ok from a cardiologist before she prescribes me stimulants.
So… yeah, I think I’m finally starting to get some proper care for my mh.
To be continued.
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So glad you connected well with your new doctor and feel comfortable so far! I am not a doctor, but Ambien and Seroquel sound like a particularly bad mix to me.
FWIW, I had an Ambien addiction for a few years and that stuff messed with my brain a lot. It is only supposed to be prescribed for short term usage. It’s hypnotic side was trouble for me…I slept ate (a lot), had telephone conversations, slept drove, sex, hallucinations…it was not healthy for me at all. There is a lot of info on the net about Ambien’s troubling side effects. Glad you are off it!!!
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Oh dear, that sounds terrifying! I abused ambiens about 4 years ago and I honestly have no idea how I’m still alive. I guess it felt more legit now taking them from an actual doctor… it wasn’t a good idea.
Yeah… I was taking the ambiens because they’re easy, but now I’m gonna go back to melatonin for sleep. Last night was my first blackout and it scared me. I didn’t drink, just took both ambien and seroquel- next thing I know it’s the morning. My husband said I acted completely normal, watched some stuff on my laptop, had some tea, said good night… I don’t remember any of it. That shrink gave me a strange cocktail of meds and just messed my brain up.
It’s probably gonna take a while till I’m fully functional again, but I’m pretty optimistic now. I mean, I still feel like shit but I’m getting proper care from a competent doctor who doesn’t have a god complex. That’s progress.
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Yes, to all this!!
Onward to a healthy healing you!!
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I’m happy to hear this! I hope everything works out for you!
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That’s good news! I’m glad you finally found someone that listens to you and is willing to take the time to get you in a better place.
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exactly what all psychiatrists sound like. Continue with your medication. They always know better as they already know you got your info from google like so many clients. I’ve been through it so many times. But the truth is that there are plenty of alternatives to almost all types of psychiatric drugs. Even an anti-allergy pill and an anti-epileptic pill belong to this because of the side effects that help in psychiatry. But the psychiatrist should make the effort to consider the options with you. And certainly don’t start with medication that you don’t feel comfortable with, because once you’re on it, you often have to taper off which takes a while.
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Ahhh that’s good news! So happy for you. Hold on! And keep an eye on those psychiatrists haha
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Thanks for checking in.
I don’t know where I am… the possibility of having ADHD had given me hope that I’m treateble. Turns out I don’t fully meet the criteria for it. All I have is what I know, BPD and some traits of avoidant persons disorder. I’m disordered. Completely. When I took those meds back in December I had a glimpse of what my life could have been like… I was productive and living, then side effects made it not worth it. Now I’m not productive. And hopeless.
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