It makes me happy to see that you’re going to keep trying.
The one thing I adore about your Journey is it proves sobriety isn’t a straight road.
Thinking of you.
please help me, I don’t mean to sound desperate but it feels desperate, please convince me that this will all turn out OK, not the virus, my sobriety. My minds got a 101 good reasons, tools, lessons, quotes and so much praying yet still I’m lost. Please help me.
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It will Paul; I stop short of promising. WE are all in this together; I know that gets thrown around alot but it truly feels like it is here, with us all.
You’re journey is a hard one, but walk it through with us here… Much love sent to you…
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Hang in there Paul. Sending you lots of love. Can you take a walk? Maybe go out and take some pictures of nature.
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Oh man, I am so sorry. I know it can feel bleak. Can you get outside for a walk or jump around or yell or scream? Join some meeting somewhere online? Eat something sweet? Sleep?
I wish I could wave that magic wand and take away your pain. I know you can pull thru and pull you together. Please have faith in your self. 
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I’ve not got a printer but if I can read it on my phone then cheers I’ll try anything.
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Hey, you don’t sound desperate you sound like all of us. You know I’m where you are and with the help of everyone here we can get through it. It’s hard to see why sobriety is worth it while you’re in it, but something occurred to me today, just one little thing that matters to me, I can’t be laser focused if I’m drinking. I can’t build what I need to if I’m drinking. But, when I’m drinking I don’t care about that. What I’m coming to understand is that I have very little, if any love for myself. This causes relapse and self sabatoge. Let us love you until you can love yourself if that’s one of the issues. I promise to do the same, today. Remember what you said about days. Just do your best today. You know where to find me. Sweet dreams 
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Hope this helps. Just in case you missed it where I had posted it.
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somethings gotta click soon bc I am now at that can’t live with it can’t live without it stage, I never stay here for long. be safe.
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Thinking of you
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so today its got to the point where nurses are going to wear waterproof overalls bc there are no proper PPE, people walking about and stopping in corridors to bend over and holding their stomach while they cry and no one can get close enough to hold them, 5 suspected cases with no way of getting tests. Welcome to my alcoholic reality. Somehow I’m expected to be strong… Yeah right.
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Oh Paul. That’s terrible! I’m so sorry this is your reality right now. I can only imagine what you’re going through and it’s definitely frightening. Praying you stay healthy and this all ends soon. Massive virtual hug to you.
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Wow Paul! I give you so much credit for being there on the front lines. I sure hope they’re giving you protective wear too. How are these people going to get meals if you get infected? Stay safe and well.
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thanks Lisa, I can’t take any credit Its not exactly a life choice, I would rather be at home where its safe. Sorry I’ve not caught up with much lately. Hope you’re hanging in there.
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yes it’s still day 0 but something is shifting inside, the fog is slowly lifting, you can’t do nothing if your head ain’t straight. I’m feeling confident about tommorow.
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Nice to see you’re fighting Paul, have a good sleep tonight…
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Tomorrow is a new day. I know you still have some fight left in you. Sleep well!!
checking out on another day, how do you all do it how do you stay so strong, your in my book of legends.
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