Goodnight 
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Fuck off world, I hate you today and Iāll hate you for a while yet as well. Do good things they say, treat people how you want to be treated they say, think positive and positive things happen they say, you reap what you sow they say, well whoever they are your a fucking dick and talk shit. karma is a load of bollocks as well while Iām at it.
I know Iāve got a good heart, I see the good in everyone but what do I get out of it. Nothing. And as for god Iām glad we get to choose our own if we want one bc I know people who are religious and they havenāt got a decent bone in their body, hypocrites.
Be strong lovely people. 
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Wow Paul. What on earth happened?? Hope youāre ok.
Laura lost her job today after 18 years all bc she wrote a message on Facebook wishing a resident r.i.p. who died of covid. Itās not company policy and its run by fascist racists.
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Wow. That really does suck. Iām so sorry. 
Sending you a hug 
sorry to hear
Wtf?! How could they let her go over that? Theyāre just cold hearted fucking people. Watching people die from the virus has to take a toll on Laura and they need to allow her to grieve in her own way. If a post makes her feel better then so be it. These are different times and employers need to relax the rules. Sending you and Laura big hugs. 
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lifeās full of twats we move on and see what happens next in this crazy story called life. Itās bruised the ego the same ego that tells me itās OK to drink and take drugs but as much as I would like to get wasted, and trust me I really really want more than anything, I refuse to let the decisions of others make me feel that hopeless feeling again of being a drunk. its horrible being strong but just lately shit donāt seem to stick. We just get on with it.
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I just put my big boy pants on and went to work and acted as normal. I wonāt give them the satisfaction of thinking Iām upset, I didnāt sulk and ignore anyone just did my job and went home. Iām still angry and alcohol and weed would be kinda nice but I refuse to do it to myself. I canāt go back there anymore.
Thank you for asking. 
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OK another day WON. Sobriety is not about not drinking, drugs, porn or eating etc itās about you. A content you will unlikely turn to these choices bc what would you gain from it. oh I want the high the buzz the chill the relief but happiness is what your searching for so take more care of your mental wellbeing bc natural happiness will release all the same chemicals in your brain without the guilt and shame. Being sober is now my go to place of joy, like when you meditate and you concentrate on one thing I now concentrate on sobriety when all around me things are going wrong my sobriety is all that matters and as long as Iām sober Iām a winner bc I know that drinkers feeling and it haunts me like the ghost of Xmas past, I canāt live with it no more.
As ever be strong sober warriors of the world, itās been emotional 
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Right on! Good stuff, my friend!
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still in control, nothing bad to report today but if I donāt write anything then @Lisa07 canāt sleep and gives me shit.
didnāt see that coming did you Lisa.
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beginning to feel a bit ill and it could be absolutely anything in the world but now even if you break a finger nail it has to be a covid finger nail. checking out clean and sober again and life is all falling into place. Just when you think youāve seen it all along comes a new surprise or challenge but sobriety pushes you in the right direction, it helps you make the right decision and keeps you calm enough to cope if it still doesnāt turn out how you want.
Be strong itās only 24 hours.
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Last night was the ONLY night I didnāt come on here to read your post and I slept like shit. That proves I need your posts!!
I guess I just canāt sleep without you Paul.
That sounds wrong
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sober day again but an odd day, got corona virus or some strange bug and got a lecture about drug use by some little upstart. Iām not sure Iāve got anything to learn as far as alcohol and drugs are concerned,apart from how to live without them. now thereās some advice I would take serious. Be strong as ever sober warriors of the world. Donāt let the bastards grind you down.
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Lol @ āsome little upstartā, 
Good nightā¦
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half way through day 21 drug and drink free, my Mrs has officially lost her job and wonāt be going back to do her last few days as she is not allowed out bc of my covid. Bit hot and really quite dizzy and for some reason Iām still grateful, not sure grateful is the right word maybe at peace would sum it up better. nothing seems to bother me atm. Be strong sober warriors. Keep on winning the little battles and you will win the war.
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Good night to all my sober friends. Pulling the covers up on day 962. Growing more grateful and humble each day. Learning to be okay with just being okay with myself. May tomorrow bring peace and serenity into our lives on our journey in sobrietyā¦
Take care Paul and I hope you get to feeling better soon. Prayers and thoughts coming your way my friend.
There, but for the grace of God go Iā¦
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