Goodnight all… It’s been a challenging day for me emotionally to say the least. It’s the anniversary of my moms passing and it always just fucks with me and stirs shit up. I was sad mad annoyed and sad some more. I felt fed up and done with certain people… sucks when you are always there for them and it’s not retuned. Sometimes all you need is someone to give you a hug and say it’s going to be ok… My mom was the best at that. I’m thankful for you all. 
Stay sober and strong 
Much love. 
Tomorrow is a new day. 
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Off to bed, probably another sleepless night. Hoping this not sleeping thing passes soon.
Anywho, probably watch a Western until I can doze a little.
See you all on the flip-side.
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Big hugs from the West coast dragonfly. It’s okay to have those feelings because you’re on this form sharing, processing your emotions and how you are feeling instead of keeping it inside. That’s what I call opening up the toolbox of the program of Alcoholics Anonymous and using your tools.
Dragonfly again a big hug and IT IS going to be OKAY my friend. One day at a time, one hour at a time, even one breath at a time, sometimes that’s what it takes just to be okay with our self and get through the day. Just remember this, we do not drink or use no matter what. We get sad, we cry, we get frustrated, we laugh, we even get happy at times. We feel our feelings and we process our emotions. At the end of the day when we lay our head down on our pillows, we come to the realization that we are okay, still clean and sober. Good night my friend, stay safe.
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Thank you so much Edmund. Your a good friend to have 
thanks for being there.
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life is so hard at the moment and I still don’t want to drink and smoke. Yeah OK as the days rack up the odd “one would be nice” has managed to quietly whisper in my head but I’ve been there done that, blah blah blah and as we all know whispers tell lies.
Be strong as always sober warriors, Stay true to yourself.
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Up late watching Western movie Smoky. Fred MacMurray as bronco busting cowboy 
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Hopefully I will get some zzzzz’s tonight. Goodnight 
all.
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you didn’t even finish page 1 and I was out like a light, thank you 
Wow Paul.
These last few weeks that you’re experiencing are amazing. You’re getting it.
I’m not. Although sober, I’m still looking back, a lot. And still craving, a lot. That shouldn’t be the case. I need to learn some positivity from you.
It’s time that I stop complaining about what I’m missing and time to start appreciating, developing, and exercising the many gifts God has already provided me.
Thank you. And good job.
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cheers Kevin TBH I’ve got so many problems that I need to face in the future I can’t dwell on the past, it can’t be changed and I can’t deal with life drunk or stoned. They say all addicts are the same but I can’t even begin to understand what you go through. Apart from addiction though the trick is to concentrate on life, think positive at all times, accept everything for what it is, expect nothing and you’ll never be let down. I’ve finally learnt that nothing in my life improves from using your doc, as long as my mind is happy what more does it need.
TBH I’m absolutely crapping myself about my financial future but I’ll deal with it. Take care mate read inspirational books, watch inspirational videos, listen to inspirational music,keep your head out of the past and look beyond your worries to find solutions. 
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It always feels like bed time lately life is going so quick. Today there has been a lot of talk about the past and I only have one regret and that’s I wish I tried to quit about 30 years ago. I wonder where I would be now and who I would be with and what I would be like.
Now though I have to wonder what I will become. I’m going to get out and do more post covid if the money situation improves. Funny when your using bc there would always be money for your habit no matter what. Be strong people and be kind to yourself and others.
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Living on coffee these days with lack of sleep.
Have to see what Western is playing on the Starz Western channel.
Take it in until I doze a little.
Good night all!!
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checking out on another sober day very shortly, woke up loving life and going to sleep loving it a little bit more. Saw my favourite drink in the shop today and was told by my still very unaware other half to have one bc it’s a nice day and one won’t hurt. Didn’t even have to stop and think about it and try and second guess myself. There’s nothing there for me anymore it doesn’t hold that strange magnetic power that it used to. I only see pain in a bottle or a can of depression. I am grateful for every sober day and will never do anything in the course of 24 hours to ruin it or deny myself the pleasure of peace and happiness. The world is mad and life is hard but inside of me is a calmness that I have never felt for so long and been so trusting of . Be strong sober warriors, breathe and believe.
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I am happy to report I actually slept last night!!! Very deeply as well.
It took riding the bike 50 miles in 97 F heat to do it.
I will take it!!!
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yeah that’ll work 
another sober day done, still high on life. Nothing to report so no news is good news. Learnt 3 songs on my guitar today none of them perfect but I never said I was, keeps me happy. Have a good day and stay strong for one more day. 
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The song I heard was awesome! No one is perfect but you’re amazingly talented.
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cheers, it went wrong every time I recorded it so in the end I just thought fuck it.
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