Well done, my worst moments for temptation are good days.
Why not kick it up to 17 from 10…“Oh it will be so much better and brighter and more fun” the salesman says.
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Time to retire and watch the news or maybe a Western?
Anywho, hopefully I sleep a couple hours tonight.
Good night all 
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One more sober day done!!!
Good night all.
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got to bed sober today so grateful for that again, still a little shadow following me around it’s been there trying to get my attention now for 3 days, it wants a drink but as long as I keep walking in the light the shadow will fade.
If my good mood is at level 8 nothing will take it up to 10, I’ve finally learnt this maybe my dial only ever goes up to 8 and I’m just never bloody satisfied. Be strong sobafarians.
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tired, busy day all work no play, stay strong.
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checking out on another day of this crazy little journey, so yesterday was a one off and although it crossed my mind to have a drink Im pretty sure I wasn’t going to have one but when I got home from work my Mrs had already bought me some bc she thought as I had one yesterday I would want one today, as you can imagine I drank them but it does amaze me after everything she’s seen me go through why she would think I’ll be OK to have the occasional beer. Life is strange.
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My spouse was the same, I think they want us to be able to handle it just as much as we do. Stay strong and just try and educate her. I know you have it in you my dear 
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Because she’s not an alcoholic. They really don’t get it. Be careful Paul. Please. Don’t want you back on the struggle bus. It’s not a fun ride. Remember??
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the obvious happened again 1 turns into 2 turns into 8. probably should feel bad but I don’t. I’m also very aware of how easy it is to stop if it gets too shity.
I’ll be back.
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We will be here. Keep posting. Love you!
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Once u have one relapse, the next few days it is like the brain has remembered and keeps bugging us to drink again. Waiting for u to tell us u’v pulled the brake on it completely.
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Goodnight 
tomorrows a new day my friend. 
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not quite where I need to be yet but I’m sure it’s coming.
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I’m sure it’s coming too. It’s deep down in there or you wouldn’t be posting. It just needs to come to the surface. 
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I just wanted to let you know, you’re in my thoughts lately. I don’t recall seeing any posts from you today and that worries me. But I know you’ll find the strength and come back. I have faith in you. Love you. 
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it’s been a lonely week of drinking and exhausting mentally. it was good at the start but hey isn’t it always then the minute comes where you realise you should probably stop again and find you can’t. I’ve not learnt anything new about me or the experience not bc I’m ignorant but bc I’ve been here too many times and don’t learn. So I’m going to bed sober for the first night in 7 days. This is fact not some idea I had or wish I made, it doesn’t matter about how or whys it’s just about staying sober. I’ve broken too many promises to myself about sobriety in the past and I’ve tried every trick in the book to convince myself I can have one and be OK. I’ll never be OK and alcohol is a battle I will never win so why stand and fight it. Its time to accept you got me and surrender and walk away.
Alcohol you win, I’m too tired to do this every day so I’m going it alone from now on,I’m off to give life another try.
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Paul, I believe you have learned more than you realize. You have learned, you can stay sober one day at a time, one hour at a time, one breath at a time if need be. You have learned, you are not in this alone. You have learned, there are people here that care and have love for you like a brother. You have learned and seen firsthand how the program of Alcoholics Anonymous works in one’s life. These are all valuable lessons in sobriety, never to forget. Congratulations on day one Paul. Proud of you my friend. Good night and stay safe.
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