in bed sober, tricky day but it doesn’t have to be pretty right now it just has to be…
I’ve had numerous relapses and everytime it’s different starting again. This one is going to be an emotional one I think as things are bothering me but I am grateful for my little gift today.
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Truth. It can look however it needs to look. Glad you hit the pillow sober. One day down. And we’ll just take it one day at a time. 
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same old story but it’s the same old story that works.
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thank you so much for painting such a clear picture of how we have to surrender. I never understood what that meant until I read your post thank you so much
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not quite goodnight but close enough to call it a sober day. Drives, dog walks, rivers, castles, picnic, hours of zoom meetings, now grapes and calomile tea with favourite playlist on Spotify. Bit anxious about work tommorow, no real reason apart from that’s where all my misery lies. it’s toxic to me but I need to stay there for now. Let’s not end this on a somber note, I’m sober and for that today I am grateful. 
to all, stay strong.
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How does Laura like her new job? Maybe, it’s time for you to do the same…
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I am proud of you Paul… Thank you for helping me stay sober, just for today… 
good night my friend.
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it’s been another day sober, not the easiest but manageable, had to listen to the noise for a little while then just went to more zoom meetings, I’ve not shared yet as I’m not sure I can fit my life in 7 minutes and also manage to justify my alcoholism. By that I mean we’ve all got a story and it’s good to let it out, in fact I insist that you do but shouldn’t we be concentrating on everything we have now and keep moving forward not back. Sit down meditate and face your demons accept its part of your life but it’s not your life. It’s all just images now that can’t hurt you anymore. File it where ever you want, a little place far away in the back of your mind or in a journel and mentally lock it. Throw the journal in the bin and move on. Now is the only thing that matters.
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I personally like to look forward and not regurgitate my life story over and over again. To me that’s putting a lot of focus on the negative. It’s fine once and a while, but in groups where it’s the norm, it wears me down and I get very depressed and angry. I also tend to compare and use that as an excuse like, man, I never did that shit. Guess I’m not an alcoholic. So I’m not a fan of the whole who’s the biggest alcoholic either. So I concentrate on how much better my life is sober. I now have a therapist and save the stories for him to help me process professionally. That’s my two cents. At the end of the day we need to figure out the formula that works for us and what group, if any, is right for us. It’s different strokes for different folks. What works wonders for one, may not work for another. So, I guess try something a little different this time? Just tossing out ideas. Love and hugs dear, sweet friend 
Sleep well 
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I was just thinking the same… time for sleep and not s drop in me… well wishes on your journey in these harder times x
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I like that!
I’ve had a really bad run recently, giving in to my DOC with no sense of self control. It’s such a pain, I even lack motivation for recovery…
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you know what I did once when my reset stats looked like that, I deleted it and started again with a clean slate and refused to blemish it with another one. I got a good 90 days out of that.
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very close to going to bed sober again. Trying not to smoke again today and I’ve as good as done it, it’s not been nice though as I’ve wanted to smoke all day but haven’t had one, got a new app that sets goals and records your mood so I’ve got enough to keep me busy when I need to. We all gotta start somewhere.
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getting into more of a wellbeing routine, keeping quite busy, creative and setting goals. I’m not a setting goals kind of person so it’s more little things I have to do during the day. Work all weekend, it’s the only thing that Drags me down so the days of enjoying my job have gone and it’s the start of a new chapter where its just a means to an end. As usual it’s not actually the job but the people so the less contact with idiots and the less I try and react to them the better. Another day no drinking and not smoking was already easier than yesterday. Be strong.
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I’m so happy you’re doing better
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I’ve had a belly full of this bullsh*t today.
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That’s okay, we learn to work through tough days in recovery as long as we don’t have a belly full of alcohol.
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I suppose a belly full of destructive, sad people are not worth me drinking.
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